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Things have changed

2011-12-31T00:12:00.001+08:00

THINGS HAVE CHANGED. Yes, things really have changed, and thank god for the better. After all life can be easily lived anyway. We have every right to make mistakes, make them right and then learn from them, and I am pretty sure I have learned a lot this time, and this learning process is not going to come easy yet, I am perfectly willing to accept whatever it takes to make those mistakes I made right again.

Since its the last day of the year, I guess I just have to conclude my year. As you have seen, for the past 5 years of blogging, 2011 has definitely been the most eventful time of myself, VERY eventful it seems like being in a roller coaster ride. I've had moments of definite sorrows and of course perfect happiness.

January 2011. I was working. Enjoying the working life. I was pretty happy.

February 2011. I was still working yet I was in the middle of processing my application for university which I pretty much think took over my whole month.

March 2011. I was still working. I have no idea what I was doing but I guess my life just revolve around my work.

April 2011. I was still working. Nothing exciting about that. University application results are being released.

May 2011. Graduation. First time I've experienced graduation in Singapore. The feel of wearing that graduation gown and the happiness of having the Merit Award finally in my hands after working my ass of for it for the past three years. Feels kind of like victory really. BUT. It was the month when I got sort of become crazy. Crazy about the university result. After being rejected by NUS, I had those two weeks of tears, crying even at work, I think I was kind of depressed really, I don't take rejection that easily, well, I mean, who does?

June 2011. And then this month came! The long awaited result of my hard work, a place in NTU in Biological Science. I was happy. Plus, I started planning for my trip. Long awaited trip.

July 2011. I came back. I went back to my home town. Things that happened should just remain there. Specially the "What happened in Vegas, stays in Vegas" sort of thing. Yet, I did enjoy my stay. I was ecstatic. No, I didn't spend my holidays doing things I can't do here in Singapore. I guess, I was not looking for that after all. What I did there? I did all the things I so wanted to do when I live there and did them with such contentment. They were nothing deep really, they were simple stuffs. Theme parks, shopping, fast food, classy food, road trips - seems normal? No, they're not for me. My childhood was deprived from those things. It's not something I would hate my parents about, I understood the limitations of how much we can spend when we were young and I accepted them, I was more concerned about the fact that if I don't I will miss one of the best foundation of life - education, I was pretty smart when I was young, so deal with it. But then, when I came back, I spend for all of those things, and it was fulfilling. I was happy.

August 2011. School started. Oh the stress.

September 2011.

October 2011.

November 2011. This is when I realised that 3 months had passed and my life was stationary yet busy. No it wasn't boring, I didn't have time to get bored. I was too busy with school works.

December 2011. The last month. Maybe one of the most eventful months of my life. Emotions bursting every single day, not all the same, yet, thankfully, I'm ending the year happy.

I guess I want to talk about more about my December. So I started the year feeling too happy I guess, I made a confession at the end of November and I thought I had everything fixed in such short time. Silly me, I was wrong, Of course I was wrong and I should have known, I was an overconfident brat and I hate myself for that. When this happened, I got into a shock. I was sad, I was angry and I was very scared, too scared because it happened to be about a lot of things. I was never scared in such a way before, so that really came as a shock, plus I never would have imagined myself being scared in such a manner. I couldn't think. That was the sad part of the month. AND then, reconciliation happened, and then I was happy. I guess I really became very happy that when I received my exam results with a D+ in it, and my automatic response would have been to start bursting into tears, it didn't come. Mind you, it took me a while to realise what's causing all these. But then, I guess, with the brains and genuine advices of a couple of girlfriends, my tiny brain finally came to it and I was not to argue.

I still come to the same conclusion, 2011 has so far the best year I had so far and I'm very happy about it. Sad to say goodbye, yet with this sort of ending, I kind of think that maybe there are better things on the way. Optimistic? well I think sometimes I do deserve to have some optimism in my system.

Maybe I'm back

2011-10-01T11:41:00.004+08:00

Blogging has not been my thing for quote awhile now. Thank goodness it's not because of the previous reasons of not having anything exciting happening in my life, but due to the fact that for once in my life I had been too busy and preoccupied and there has been too many thing happening in my life, adjusting is quite hard. I know it's just too stupid for me to complain because I have always wished for more things to happen in my life, but now it did happen, I think it's much more than I could handle.

First thing. School. School had been, so far too stressful to be getting on with. It's a whole new world thus a whole new challenge for me, and yes, academically. I could never have imagined I would struggle this much to understand a single concept, but it's proving to be beyond me. All I know now is, I need to do hardcore studying. Hardcore in such a way I have never done before. So I got my gameplan, putting it into action is not easy - at all. After 3 years in poly, studying has not been my thing anymore so now I am struggling to pull myself together and get my head in this freaking game. I'll let you know if I'm succeeding, so far, not yet.

Second. Work. I had never been this broke in my life. I need money and somehow my pre-university activities had made me spend so much I forgot to save. Well I had so much fun, and those activities did made a big impact on turning my life around. So I'm not really sure whether I should be regretting it. So now I am working and it's tiring and quite sickening. And I have to keep doing this while I'm studying, because $$$ is pretty much everything in this world. Anyone who thinks otherwise is being a freaking hypocrite.

Third. My paranoid brain and the thoughts that conquer it every day. Which involves mostly inspiration = distraction, guilt, unreasonable judgement and what I want and what I need and what I have and what I am willing to do with all these. Pretty vague? Well if it's clear, it wouldn't be a problem.

Now about my blog title. Why that? Because of all these recents events in my life, I am pretty much a bit overwhelmed with emotions, and the best way to deal with them, is shut some of them down, I did that before and it worked. Somehow, I think, something had motivated me to do so again. I don't want to, but it's the best way. So maybe, I'm back.

This time

2011-07-27T00:25:00.004+08:00

THIS TIME. Obviously, I am again, struggling to find a title for my post, not that no words comes to my mind, but I know this time around, I have to choose every single word I type very carefully. Reason? I just have to.

So! What in the world had happened to me? I swear, I am wondering the same bloody thing! Exactly a month after my last post, and yes, It feels incredibly different typing. I would probably thank my much anticipated holiday that started on the 9th and ended on the 19th (July 2011), which probably pretty much, changed my changed life in SG. The details of this holiday might or might not be mentioned in this blog, but what can I say, is that it was FUN and it was just what I needed to have. Thanks to those 5 years of stress, rush and anxiety, I was able to appreciate this holiday, probably more than anybody ever could?

Lets enumerate some mentionable highlights:

.I seriously had fun with all my cousins, ALL of them, and its probably more fun that it was last time.

.I tried to spend on things I always long to spend on when I lived there, and I swear, it was amazingly satisfying!

.I mingled with my old friends, the way I do last time, yes, issues and intrigues and I tried to get involved with these stuffs! It was fun, specially with my way of thinking now, my ideas are pretty much so different and fun when I was 16!

.UNLITXT!

.No/Very little voice for half my stay! (DUE TO OVER-EXCITEMENT and EXCESSIVE ACTIVITIES)

.Everything that happened during those 10 days! No regrets!

Its so hard to give details, because everything just seemed to be just FUN, words can't even express them.

Isn't it weird that I'm typing with so much happiness in me, Usually when I blog, I'm filled with an amazing amount of stress or I'm pretty much grieving, which I seriously hope, won't happen anytime soon, or won't happen at all!

So, I couldn't emphasize it more, this post is definitely different from any post i have ever posted.

Sort of an eventful one of my life

2011-06-27T15:26:00.003+08:00

SORT OF AN EVENTFUL TIME OF MY LIFE. I totally have so much words in my head for such a long time already. I always want to update my blog but I always

can't seem to find any free time to spare, and seriously, I have no idea why.

I know I had been purposely dragging, specially around April and May, well that's mainly because there's nothing exciting to talk about in my life AND I'm

so busy getting worried about my Uni Application. Yes, that was I was doing for two whole months. Sort of, everytime I get home, I sit, think and think and

think and then play Sorority Life, which is my favourite game in Facebook, and it seem to calm me down, so i spend tons of hours in it, that i just recently

reached Level 200.

So this dilemma and purposely over-addiction of a facebook game has come to and end on the first of June. I was in a crazy state.

After Seeing the Envelope:

.My heart seemed to have dropped 12 floors, and I was in a holy-crap-there's-an-envelope mood.

.Then I was in a finally-it's-here mood.

While opening the envelope:

.My brain was flooded with 'I'm rejected-I'm rejected-I'm rejected'

When I read the letter (I was in the mailbox area)

.I read 'Congratulations!'

.I was motionless.

.I couldn't believe it.

.I read it again. 'Congratulations!'

.Then I was like. 'Oh Sh*t!'

.Then I went back to the letter, this time reading more than the 'Congratulations!'.

.Then I cried.

.Took my phone with my shaking hands, and called Keith!

.Went to the lift (and I was still crying, and a guy went in, he must have thought I was crazy)

.Went out of the lift.

.Called Cindy, and cried somemore.

.Got in of the house, excitedly told my mum and cried somemore.(Such a super silly moment, I swear)

So why was this such a big deal that I shed too much tears for a letter. Well, I didn't expect I would react as much, but I think its me and my pride taking

over.

Two weeks before that, I received a REJECTION letter from NUS. I was so rooting for that because I have convinced myself that applying to a relevant course

gives a security to my future. I applied for a totally different course in NTU, so my chances seemed to have been slimmer honestly. The rejection totally

got in to me like a huge building dropping into my head, sounds violent but that's really how i felt. I was crying all over the place. Seriously, I think if

I got another rejection letter, I probably would have snapped. I have alot of expectations from myself and I don't think anyone could ever understand, the

lenght of the frustration and agony of a rejection. I'm crazy that way. Oh. And I sent an Appeal Letter for this.

Enough of the depressing chit-chats. Since that two weeks of agony was over and was replaced by an overly tearful joyful moment, lets go back to the other

end of craziness.

So I received the letter 1st of June. The acceptance window, opens on the 10th of June. That was another 9 days of extreme paranoia in my side. I was sort

of thinking, what if the letter was some sort of a mistake or something, see the paranoia in there. So I waited and waited and waited. And June 10 arrived,

that was after 11:59 of June 9, I was logged in and accepted the offer - talk about excited.

I had to delete my full name although a lot of people already know. I just think that the idea of having my full name displayed casually in my blog is a little, well, too public?

June 10. Feeling happy starting the week, and what do I get... a call from NUS, asking me for an interview. I was like, SERIOUSLY?! i suffered two whole

weeks of despair from a rejection and then they called. Ugh! I have no idea what to say, i was coated with annoyance, with so much thoughts in my head such

as:

.NUS is such a good school.

.It's Info Tech

.I prefer Bio Science

.But NUS is such a good school and Info Tech is a good course.

.NTU IS A GOOD SCHOOL TOO!

.AND YOU LIKE THE BLOODY COURSE IN NTU.

then I said, "No, I'm not going." And then, I panicked a bit. Okay, Alot. Nothing could have settled me in place until the NTU admission package came on

June 17. Nothing, as in Nothing, even considering when I retrieved my Matric Number and uploaded my photo in the site. So I got the package, Then life was

happy again!

So lets jump to the 24th of June.

(All unmentioned dates had probably been spent to unprofitable boredom, Sorority Life (game) and Sorority Life (forum), extensive online shopping, overly

spending on food and watching Grey's Anatomy)

The Medical Check-up. Why is this relevant? This was the time I had my first signt of Nanyang Technological University. First Impression. UP?!. Oh. and I

got lost, totally have no idea where I was and totally have no idea how to get to wherever I have to go. Well I managed to find it eventually by asking this

nice old guy. Apparently, all i had to do is tilt my head up a bit and I can see the building name. I had to wait a bit for my queue number to be called and

then I was done around 10:30 and was on my way to the rest of the day.

Ate at Stevo's for lunch. Then at 4:30. The much anticipated Full Body Massage.

The Relaxation. Okay, the massage place I went to was not as good as Java Java Spa, but it was still satisfying. I love massage. It totally makes me feel so

much better. After all those stressful stuffs going on for the past weeks, or months, it was such a good change to be lying there and getting pampered!

The Lion King Musical. So after the massage, no time to relax. We rushed to Marina Bay Sands to watch The Lion King Musical. Although, I was never much, or

probably not even the slightest bit of a singer, I know I could appreciate these kinds. (I love 'Colours of the Wind' and 'Part of Your World' so much!) Of

course, we could not have been able to get there without google maps. Eventhough with its help, we still totally struggled to find our way towards that god

forsaken place. It was torture to get there, so even though I would really wanna walk around there, I won't bother, unless I really have to or, not during

night time.

So the Lion King. It was really a nice show, but I wouldn't spend hundreds of dollars for it (like I would on anything, Or probably only on another Long

Champ Bag), so I'm thankful by boss gave me her tickets. Yes, she is so nice! and I am indeed very happy and thankful for it. I actually got kinda desperate

to see it, (Yes I managed to convince myself to that point). The Idea that there was a possibility to get the tickets without spending hundreds of dollars

got me so caught into the musical and I really hoped, so much, I could get it, and I did! and so I was able to call the Lion King, the first ever Musical I

watched! I really liked it and I think that its really worth watching, and I totally would have regretted if I missed the chance.

The costumes were wonderful! I totally want the Sarabi Costume for myself! The actors were really good. Whether its acting, singing or dancing. Sometimes, I

do envy people with so much talent! The music was great, and it was really such a nice change to be watching something new.

.Favourite Character: That would have been Timon and Pumbaa. Eventhough Timon was very entertaining, somehow, I like Pumbaa's cuteness.

.Favourite Scene: When the Hyena's were singing and dancing! I know there's so much more nicer scenes, but somehow, that Hyena's production number has its

nice effect on it. I really do have this thing for villains. (I think the stampede scene was really impressive too, and is my second favourite part)

.Favourite Song: Not much choice, but I would go for "Can You Feel The Love Tonight", its just nice as it is.

After all those happy thoughts, there's one lesson learned. I will never book a spa appointment before an event! Its such a hassle to rush after you've been

pampered. Seriously.

I got home around 12 mn, I wasn't expecting the show to finish so late. Of course I was too tired, but not showering would have totally be more torturous.

So I did, waited for my hair to dry, which took an incredible amount of time.

The next day, was woken up by my mum announcing we are going out to a kid's bday party. I agreed rather than rotting at home and spending my whole weekend

infront of the computer again, and I can eat nice free food. I've never tried New York New York's food and the idea of it being free is seriously tempting.

Since it was in a mall, I spent time wandering around when I get bored. If not, I was getting entertained by these two 4 year old girls, watching them

satisfy their boredom with a coupld of odd things. It was pretty entertaining.

The rest of the weekends is not as eventful anymore, unless you consider formatting a laptop entertaining, then that was how I spent my Sunday.

Now, I'm on my last week of work. Soon I'll be free to wake up late, waste a couple of days at home, go on a much awaited holiday in the Philippines, then

waste a couple of days again, before School finally starts again!

Cooking day!

2011-02-20T23:25:00.007+08:00

COOKING DAY! :P

meatloaf

stuffed tomatoes

creamed spinach

yummy day!

Amnesia

2011-01-07T22:04:00.003+08:00

AMNESIA. oh no no no no no, i'm so not gonna talk about what amnesia means and i definitely don't have it. but if you think just the title seems so drama, leave my blog, NOW. =) it just merely pop out in my mind and i just want to discuss things about it - well coz i watched amnesia girl few days back. ok, so amnesia is forgetting your memory because of some weird things that affected your brain - i just wondered if it really is like the movies and tv shows or stories in books. almost majority of the soap operas, dramas in short, involves amnesia, usually involving couples.

so the girl/boy forgot about the boy/girl then eventually they became together again because of some magical thing going on, merely explained that the mind forgets but the heart remembers. and so i researched. well apparently the heart do remembers - with Scientific Proofs:

The following indisputable Scientific discoveries, done by Western Scientists, clearly prove that the heart:

1- Has thinking and calculating nerves.

2- Has a brain of its own.

3- Participates in leading and guiding individuals based on certain calculations, emotions and feelings.

4- Relays information back to the brain and has a 2-way communication system with the brain that enables it to take part of the thinking, processing, and decision-making.

5- Can force the brain to obey its commands.

6- Has memory and data retrieval (remembering) capability.

7- Has its own intelligence and intelligent system.

ok, before i decided to do this post, i didn't have any ideas about the above facts and i was about to question the interpretation of amnesia in movies. these facts just baffled me - like really. i think its pretty awesome. so i shall forget my initial idea of trying to argue with the statement 'heart remembers' - coz i was wrong. very wrong.

somehow i was cheered with those facts. yet, i will never wish to get amnesia. i thought i was selfish with the reason i was living with my whole life, well apparently, the reason doesn't have to involve people you love, coz, the heart can do that and from what i can conclude, heart seems impossible to get amnesia, so you'll still find your way - its well kept - very safe =), so now i can proudly reveal my only reason in my whole life why i never wanted to get amnesia - its too painful to think about the fact that i'll be able to forget algebra! :(

Love these online shops!

2010-12-31T11:33:00.002+08:00

LOVE THESE ONLINE SHOPS.

just click and enjoy! =)

reviews coming later!

Just a part of it

2010-12-22T11:02:00.004+08:00

JUST A PART OF IT. i just had this sudden urge to blog even though there's really nothing exciting going on with my life nowadays and so, i have nothing to blog. i started this blog with no blog title at all coz i just can't think of anything - so if you do see a title, i really thought do hard to find those words.

i can't believe its already the 22nd of december, christmas hasn't really been such an eventful day to me, i can't even remember a christmas where i am ecstatic - similar to all the recurring "special occasions" in my life. i always had too much expectations - and of course, disappointments - everytime.

however, i never thought christmas this year will me more uneventful as ever. sad to admit, i'm not even looking forward to it. like usual, i will be stuck at home, pretending to be happy. i would say i'm probably such an expert as, well, i've been doing it my whole life. well, honestly, is there people who actually feel truly happy on christmas? i wonder. well, if i were to consider that we are all humans, our expectations in life is too extensive, it probably won't cover one's lifetime - i'm talking about contentment, no one ever would have that - and as for christmas - one's expectation probably increases - not probably - certainly increases - and let me repeat myself, as we are all humans > more expectations = less contentment = more disappointments. life kinda suck isn't it? i'll just try to enjoy the food.

so as i have clearly pointed out that no one is truly happy at christmas - i'm such a grinch - let me share what would make my christmas - perfect. yes - i don't know if it sounds as an exaggeration - but this is just all i need. the only thing i ever wanted - my wish since i had this mind i am using right now - every year on my birthday - every christmas - every time a wish is possible --- now, don't think i'm such a child, attention seeker and like everyone else who puts their wishes in their blog, as, well its not really a secret so don't be irritated with my post --- you know what i mean, i just want my life - i don't need all of it, probably part of it, i just want more share than what my parents have. how i wish its possible.

Daydreaming with my eyes closed

2010-12-10T16:55:00.007+08:00

DAYDREAMING WITH MY EYES CLOSED. this is my new hobby. while listening to random music i tend to create a whole lot story in my head. It ranges from fantasy, to reality, and to everything i want to happen with my life. the stupid thing is the last part i mentioned. everytime i reached this portion of my 'imagination' (the closest term i can get with my daydreams), its different - i am so indecisive really, and it annoys me. why? lets start from the beginning.

my daydreams just don't happen once a day, it happen when boredom strikes and there is definitely no other things i can do. like for example, in the train and other occassions better to be left unmentioned. use your own imagination.

so i came up with different stories, of course i am involved.

i am reading narnia now so that will explain the whole fantasy thing - i'm also inlove with harry potter so, i will really require your whole imagination for this, in addition, vampires and wolves - oh please, not the twilight kind - i don't wanna get detailed because this whole post will become a joke if i do.

now, reality, well if you are aware of what is happening in my life - which i doubt so (big time) - you will know what i'm talking about.

for the third part - well, like i mentioned, it doesn't happen once a day. so lets put it this way, in the morning, i daydream about a scene where i was drunk, oh yes, i have never been drunk in my life so yes! yes! yes! i want it to happen. then the next few parts changes within the whole day or probably till the next. maybe its because i just want to do alot of things, or maybe, just maybe - its me being as indecisive as ever and this bloody caused me to almost miss my stop - and i don't think missing a stop in the red line is pretty cool, the train always bounce back.

i feel like this post emphasises how depressing my life is, but i think otherwise. although, without a doubt people might find i have a depressing life, i have learned to live with it, so i guess i'm really not sad about what i say. i just try to enjoy these treats that i give myself. it sounds insane that i call these incidents treats really. but i enjoy them. i love to read books, okay not read - but listen (audio books) and i think that this is a factor that gives me this whole idea of enjoying daydreaming. when you listen to audio books and not read books, you have the liberty to do whatever you want that does not involve your ears - thus, a whole picture of what is happening in the book can freely be shown in your head, however you like it.

as for daydreaming, the whole picture comes first. totally controlled by yourself. its like writing a book without writing - oh you get what i mean - and my stories seems pretty exciting - i don't know if i am able to put these stories into words. its too exciting to be printed!

its pretty tiring sometimes though.

but oh well, i always need some back up ideas to keep my head (maybe) and cheer myself up - and so far i can manage. maybe i'll try writing again some time.

Just the way you are

2010-12-01T23:38:00.007+08:00

her eyes

Make the stars look like they're not shining

Sad to think she don't see what I see

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change

And when you smile,

The whole world stops and stares for awhile

i just love these words =)

Leap of Faith

2010-12-01T21:33:00.009+08:00

LEAP OF FAITH. i am probably one of the few people on earth who doesn't know the meaning of this statement. yes, i don't yet i am using it as my post title - the story was, when i was thinking and then decided that i want to update my blog, this statement just kept popping out in my head. i have no idea why - i freaking don't know its meaning.

if i'm gonna think dramatically - it was something my "inner consciousness" is trying to tell me - i just watched inception a couple of days ago - but too bad the consciousness that i am currently aware of doesn't understand the statement.

according to wikipedia:

"in its most commonly used meaning, is the act of believing in or accepting something intangible or unprovable without empirical evidence"

oh! i see!

what?!

i don't even understand what does wikipedia is trying to say. oh well - fine whatever i'll try to understand it as much as i can and, you'll be witnessing it very soon. just keep reading.

so according to wikipedia, its the act of believing - ok, i don't think i can conclude anything else from that.

followed by - in or something intangible - i think i have the idea of something intangible - trust me. and i think that believing into something like that is indeed very illogical. why believe if you think its not gonna happen? - such a pessimistic idea - but i do believe, somehow. i am illogical. but it keeps me sane. so am i doing a leap of faith? leaps of faith perhaps?

then - or unprovable without empirical evidence - everything in this bloody world is unprovable - exclude maths please. and evidence? one thing's for sure, evidence never really matter - specially with love - and love is everything, and so does this mean everyone is making a leap of faith every single millisecond of the day? then why is a leap of faith such a popular term, if after all, we all do it?

i swear i just confused myself more. it sounds like everyday to me.

stop the drama.

back to reality.

and yes, i remain unchanged. i'm talking of course about my lifestyle, work and home. (oh it has changed - not school, work and home anymore - still you get my point (^.^)")

that's all i can talk about my life - gosh its pretty boring :P

but oh well. i think lets go back to drama - or semi drama.

i mentioned earlier - i was inspired by something and that's why i'm blogging. and well, its because of something - i smiled today - in a most unusual way - because of something that has to remain unmentioned.

i just felt like i had to post. i want to say a lot of things - talk to a lot of different people about different people and myself (sounds like gossip! - haha - but no - my thoughts have different wave lengths and therefore require different wave lengths of the receiving mind!) but oh well. i can live with this. que sera sera as always.

i'll try to make this as vague as possible as to assure my privacy is safe.

there are people who loves to confuse you. and somehow, they make a big effect in the decisions that you may or may not want to do. you tend to settle in a single idea for a long period of time - something that you have of course thought of after a long period of time - and once these people comes in, may or may not be intending to, just tries to let your mind go back to zero again - rethink again - waste time in a way - but the more they do it, the more you become more indecisive of the thing you were once certain. yes you were once certain - i don't believe what people may say that maybe, you weren't certain of it after all that's why the certainty went off - people was given the capability to convince - and this ability can most of the time be so powerful it bends someone's idea. it sucks - but its the truth. so now, what i'm gonna do, is believe on both, i can be persuaded yet i can't be persuaded. i made it work somehow - not as what people would do. something - probably not advisable in life - but if it keeps my mind off insanity - why not. how? - que sera sera once again.

And so, I'm in Twitter

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AND SO, I'M in TWITTER. everyone's doing it, so due to conformity, i shall explore the wonders of twitter and let my self be conquered with it. why, coz to be honest i need more things to do in the internet. most of the time i am, obviously in facebook, playing games, lots of them or in eBay/blogshops/online shops - shopping online - and this is definitely not the best thing to do because, if i continue with this hobby, i am gonna be seriously broke in a few days. few days ago, i want a long dress, then i want a mini dress, then i want a new top, then i want boots, then i want a bomber jacket, then now i want trench coat, and i swear this isn't going to stop if i don't find any alternative way to deal with my boredom. people may find that this is stupid and its all about self control, try it yourself. i swear if i don't have self control i am broke by now. when you're working its hard to stop yourself from spending because its the only way to keep yourself sane :P

if you wanna follow me in twitter, @lizettech :)

Two Decades

2010-07-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

TWO DECADES. yes. omg. i'm freaking twenty!

A-PAUL-LO

2010-07-11T16:48:00.006+08:00

A-PAUL-LO. i know, it's such a lame title, but it took me quite long to figure that out. haha. i guess everyone knows what i'm gonna talk about in this post, and i'm so sorry if i'm boring you, but i want to have a say on this topic :). like everyone knows, because omg he is in yahoo news every single day this week. paul is a sea creature - an octopus - god, i really dun like his shape - ok, anyways, paul is a german octopus who seems to be able to predict the future. they call him PAUL the ORACLE. oh ya. nicely named, paul - apollo - greek god of oracle. smart! so he was able to predict consecutive wins of his country then in the end, betrayed his country and chose the opposing team - spain - and then he got alot of takoyaki threats. sad life. he's not patriotic enough i guess. he's still alive - and was asked to predict the finals winner - he said spain.

then there was this parrot thingy in singapore. parakeet mani. opposed paul's prediction and chose holland over spain. i was actually quite interested in the news, i was like - oh the octopus was contradicted by a psychic? parakeet mani - i have no idea what the hell a parakeet was, so at first i assumed that parakeet mani was some indian psychic! LOL. it sounds like a name. and then i found out it was a freaking parrot.

this is totally a totally total nonsense!

and unfair. all animals should be famous :)

lets start.

1. find your favourite pet.

2. get flags of spain and holland.

3. let go of your pet.

if its a fish, divide your tank into two. put the flags on 2 different sides. then scoop out your fish. then see where it will jump. and if your fish got it right, post it in the internet, he might become as famous as paul.

warning: this might be inaccurate coz probably your fish is just too desperate to survive.

if its a dog/cat or whatever mammal, draw two flags and wait were you're pet will pee or poo first. tentenenen! you got ur winner. if he got it right, post it in the internet, he might become as famous as paul too.

if its a turtle (which is hopefully not like ours). draw two flags. do however possible you can test it. (i wont try it though. somehow every time i watch our turtle it just doesn't bloody move. i always think it's dead or something - though i always find him in a different area. gosh i think he just really don't wanna move when i'm around.) if he got it right, post it in the internet, he might become as famous as paul.

i created a wall post in facebook "sooner or later the world might be driven by prophecies again. like percy jackson and harry potter". i love those books - and the root of all their sufferings was a prophecy. such a powerful prophecy that they cannot contradict and so they had themselves written in a book - this is all fiction of course.

i think prophecies are cool. i mean, who knows, they might be true. but, seriously? paul the octopus - an oracle? oh come on. this is not prophecy - its guess work. totally guess work. lucky chance. if people keep believing in these things, the world will be doomed and probably be controlled by animals and the octopus will be the king of the world.

i think that this thing about believing in animal's decision, is a sign of people's hopelessness. people are sometimes lazy to think. oh well. what can we do. that how it is now. its becoming a trend. such a sad evolution to mankind.

Trailer VS Movie

2010-07-04T19:56:00.003+08:00

TRAILER VS MOVIE. i'm back into blogging. why? people think that those who goes into blogging are the ones who does not have anyone to talk to. well i agree. but i have to clarify this idea. people goes into blogging because they have no one to talk to, because, well, why would you talk to some stupid idiots who does not get nor even appreciate anything you say :) let me just rephrase the sentence, people goes into blogging because they have no one SENSIBLE to talk to. i do talk to people, but some just annoys me like hell. well what can we do, i think the idiocy/stupidity rate is increasing in such alarming rate.

let's do some catching up, i haven't posted something for a really really long time, due to what reason? life is boring. i have been doing my internship for the past 2 and a half months and i am pretty much loving it as how harry potter loves potions class. so what's with the harry potter sudden involvement, well let's say that harry potter had been helping me survive for the past 2 and a half months.

more of the harry potter, lets talk about my blog post title. trailer vs movie. i am talking about harry potter and the deathly hallows trailer vs eclipse movie. the release date for both were just a few days apart. and this gave me the idea to compare them. AND THE WINNDER IS... HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS TRAILER!!!

while i was watching the less than 5 minutes trailer of hp7, i cannot deny the chills i felt. i was having goosebumps althrough the trailer and it was just awesome! fantastic! magnificent! 100% perfect.

this could be a very biased opinion for me as i LOVE harry potter, but its just really undeniable. i will provide a reason for this.

i read the twilight series and i'm not saying that i hate it, i think its ok. some parts are really nice, some parts are really annoying, and some parts are not even worth reading (this last part is something you wouldn't see in the hp series).

the movie on the other hand is well i can't find words to describe it. or probably the nearest would be it 'sucks'. i must admit i was looking forward to watching eclipse. there was a 4.5 out of 5 popcorn rating in the GV site last friday. and it wasn't even near true. i was totally disappointed. ok, the movie was pretty much following what the book says but there's just something that's not right with it - the actors/actresses - they were damn disappointing! lets start with the main character, which is of course, bella - kristen stewart - oh god, she just suck at being bella. is she even acting? i don't see any difference in her facial expression in any part of the movie. i don't really know who to blame for this. i've seen some parts of 'the runaways' and she's not as bad as she is in eclipse. did the director asked her 'hey, bella is supposed to be stupid, so act like one - no facial expressions is allowed'? kristen stewart looks bored the whole movie, like "what the hell am i doing in this movie?". can't blame her. really.

now the vampire, the character i like the most in the movie is alice - she's really pretty as ashley green. she looks nice in the the first two movies too, but in eclipse, it looks like the crew decided to cut cost on making her look nice in the movie. her hair looks bloody fake. she looked old and seriously, i just can't take the hair! looks so fake and dry! its not supposed to be the case! its annoying, and she also has the "what the hell am i doing in this movie?" expression in her face. can't blame her too. for rosalie, she just looks terribly OLD. its really sad! she's supposed to be the 'stunningly pretty' character - and she clearly wasn't - not even close. too disappointing. nothing much to say about jasper and carlisle, esme's ok, she had a close up now, and she kinda look prettier, thank god, one improvement. as for emmet, my mum said she looks like one of the wolfs. haha. he's becoming fat. and finally edward - robert pattinson - as for me, he is much more ideal when he was cedric diggory - he looks dead in eclipse - i dunno if that can be considered as a bad thing as duh? he is dead in the movie, he's a vampire. well, explaining it clearer he looks ugly dead? its like, if vampires can use drugs, i think he's using alot. haha. he really looks so unhealthy. plus for the sparkling scene, he looks scary - not gorgeous as its supposed to be. and finally, where did his acting skills go? im starting to think the director have to be blamed big time coz i think he asked all the characters to look dead in the movie. overall, all the vampires looks like they're bored and they don't wanna be in the movie.

the wolves. they're ok, they can all act a bit, thank god, they have more expression than the rest of the casts, the lia girl has played her role well, not bad. disappointed with the seth actor, while i was listening to the audio book, seth seems to be a baby faced yet manly guy with a nice body, something like a miniture jacob, but no, he looks unhealthy, not wolf like, he could probably join the cullens soon, too thin. can't say much for the rest, they can act compared to the main characters, such a shame. and now for jacob, i think he's the only one who seems to be cheerful enough to keep the show going. he can act well, he can keep up with the role as a jacob and carried it nicely. while i was listening to the audio book, i keep thinking jacob's such a big jerk or something, trying to force himself to be with bella, but when i was watching, i was like, hais jacob should have been the main character, he's more convincing than edward, really. unfortunately he has lesser appearance in the movie than the two expressionless main characters.

for the rest of the characters, i love dakota fanning, i love jane! not really looking forward to the next movie as her role is just to stand on one side, and try to attack with her mind, i think it would be smart if they give her some role that's totally not in the book. what i mean is like bellatrix lestrange in hp6 movie. she's not supposed to be in the movie but she was and it was damn exciting when it was her part.

for the others, they're ok, not bad, not good either. fighting scene was nice but very short. the movie had been rushed into the parts that should have made the films exciting. they gave more emphasis to the parts when bella's hormones are rushing or something. that really annoys me so much. makes the movie so boring.

another issue, i was kind of shocked that the movie was PG. seriously? PG for that? i was watching with my 11 year old brother and it was awkward. the characters keep making out, talking about sex and on the verge of doing it and it was PG. the ratings nowadays are really really getting weirder. oh well, if you're probably in US that's a totally different issue, we're in asia. it's not being old fashioned or anything of the sort, its trying to protect the innocents of kids who's not even to be called teenagers.

what's there to talk about. hmm a week to go and omg, i'm not a teenager anymore! the idea pretty annoys me, but oh well in a way, i am delighted. it's not everyday you turn 20. gosh 20. 20. 20. looking at the number makes me feel weird. i'm so gonna be 20 next week. OMG!

i can't think of anything to blog about. what keeps me busy nowadays are tv series and facebook. yes facebook is still a big part of my everyday life. i'm such a loner. well i do have fun with it. i play sorority life (i consider it as a virtual barbie!). i think its really really fun. i just love dress ups!

today, i am having colds! omg i hate sneezing so much! i feel like my brain is being shaken and its like going to explode while i'm sneezing. i so hate it!

i think now i'll just be watching a show. can't think of anything else. it's too early to sleep. :)

A month to go!

2010-06-14T21:22:00.002+08:00

A MONTH TO GO. ATTENTION!!! for all those people who do not have any idea what i am talking about in the title of this post STOP READING. GET OUT OF MY BLOG. AND DON'T TALK TO ME UNTIL YOU HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!

After MP list accomplishments!

2010-03-08T01:11:00.002+08:00

AFTER MP LIST ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

well i do listed some of the things i want t do after my MAJOR PROJECT and

guess what i have accomplished quite a number :)

1. swimming

yes, it happened twice. i swimmed after i submitted the program and then swimmed again after the presentation :)) swimming 1.0 was discussed on my previous post. now swimming 2.0.

swimming 2.0: it was fun and i was burned. well fun because, the life threatening experience were there, plus plus, ericko toppled my float freaking pusposely while i was at the end of the wave pool in the middle of the extreme waves, oh yea, luckily i survived, thanks to john and daphne, and i was cursing ericko till i don't know when. she did it to daphne too. oh well, we did it to him too, revenge is sweet :))

bad thing about it, we were burned, I WAS BURNED by the the bloody SUN. i was RED like crazy. well my face skin was quick prickling for about two days, third day, peeling started. the rest of my skin only became painful for one day, thanks to my melanin production!

2. watch movie in the theater

well i've been watching movie in the theater, even in the middle of MP, but watching movie after, is different! i watched AVATAR 3D directly after my presentation, it was not bad, but well not as good as i've expected, the 3D glasses were a bit torturous for me! they're tiring ans it made me really dizzy!

last saturday, i went to watch alice in wonderland, not 3D, i wanted to enjoy it for one thing and i don't think torturing my eyes is the best choice. it was nice. ATTENTION SPOILER COMING! i didn't expect it to be the sequel of the 1st alice in wonderland. haha. i was a little shocked realising it. cool, it was really unexpected, and my gosh, johnny depp is really cool, and anne hathaway was a little funny, specially the way she moves her hands. it must have been really tiring. though, she looked a little retarded. and the best of all, the big headed queen, well its due to the the fact that she's helene bonham carter and i love her from the moment she appeared as bellatrix lestrange!

3. drink frappuccino

always a perfect treat - frappuccino. yum yum.

4. finish percy jackson

oh yes i did finish percy jackson, SPOILER ALERT! i swear it has a hell lot of similarities with HARRY POTTER!!! shall i list it down? ok i will.

_the root is the same - a prophecy.
_cairon - dumbledore
_percy - harry
_camp - hogwarts
_cabin - houses
_kronos - voldemort

alot more, i'll type it when i remember it.

5. finish a whole series.

oh yeah, i finished glee, season one in one day! it was really nice

6. eat sushi!

i had sushi last friday and saturday :)) and more of the japanese food, sashimi and teppanyaki!!! yummy! i had salmon teppanyaki, keith had wagyu beef.

7. go out at night and drink

i did that today, though not that late, went out at 7 ate teppanyaki, went timbre and had a drink, then got home at 11. my dad doesn't know of course, but my mum does. gosh, i enjoyed it. love the live band, its pretty relaxing just sitting there and drinking. hope i can just do that again.

gotta sleep now! :)

Time to warm up with some serious typing!

2010-02-27T19:48:00.004+08:00

TIME TO WARM UP WITH SOME SERIOUS TYPING. oh yes. time to blog. i have never touched this blog for about i don't know when. well i was busy, with of course, the MAJOR PROJECT - and guess what - the end will come really really soon. like 4 days from now, and then - finally! its gonna be over. well yes, i should be really stressing the hell out of me by now, but i think that won't give me any good, so blog time.

yesterday was the submission of the software, the MP. and from the moment i submitted it, i don't want to touch it. open it for what? start finding some bugs and try to kill myself with regret coz i didn't notice it before. NO. i had enough stress and somehow, i have learned to try and avoid further causes of stress!

well one good thing about yesterday, i went swimming. for the first time, i went to jurong east swimming complex withoug my mother, father, brother and sister and i swear to god, i never have enjoyed swimming there as much as yesterday! with daphne, john, simon, shi bin and ericko. i'm not saying i enjoyed being pushed by the wave and gasping for air - as in! - that was a bit traumatising really - its like having a near death experience - haha. ok, that's a bit of an exaggeration but it was really scary, but well it was fun! gosh does that sound my life's really boring? well probably not as bad as it sounds, but well, i just love enjoying every single enjoyable moment of my life. i enojoyed the company :)).

i'll elaborate. we ate at popeye's. yummy chicken. we took train from tampines to chinese garden. so much action in the train. haha. like a man pressing the emergency button and complaining about the aircon. honestly, the train isn't that warm but he wants it to be colder. and pressing the freaking EMERGENCY button?! shall i say, insane? i was so damn tired and looking forward for a nice nap at the long trip in the train before swimming, but with the scene, how could i sleep?

when we reach chinese garden MRT, somehow, we realised that some of us have an upcoming sore throat. lol. too much chicken i guess!

it was so so hot yesterday, swimming was such a magnificent idea. we walked under the blazing sun for a few minutes, and then we were there. we missed the wave. and i didn't know that the time interval of the waves changed! we waited and waited and waited and made alot of rounds in the lazy river. lazy river is always exhausting and a few rounds is seriously no joke. and then they all went for the slides. god i'm scared of those slides! but they were not. brave ones. not me. as in not me. haha. they went for the yellow and the blue one(the highest) and they found the yellow one, more scary. seriously?! but well i find both scary. haha.

when it was time for the wave, we were there, of course. it was like, hmm, the main point of the swimming trip.

so we were there, enjoying it slowly. and then the tall guys went to the end of the pool - and the scary parts begin. during waves, i usually just stay at the 1.3 line, and i did the mistake of going over it. well if you don't know, i'm one of the shortest in class, which proves what i did was not really the best idea. let's not go to the gruesome details, imagine a 155m girl in the wave, which i didn't expect to be that strong, in the 1.6 line. i am not a swimmer, i can swim, but not far, as in seriously not far. i could probably reach the 1.4 line but with the wave, slamming into your face - survival is an issue. haha. well thank god, the guys are there. i kinda, well tortured them in a way, i wouldn't let go of them because if i do i will drown, well probably not drown, but probably getting there. lol. well at least they didn't let go of me or complain :) haha. which means i'm free to distress them. cheers! i hate being short sometimes. well most of the times?

after the wave, we went to the lazy river again, can u imagine the exhaustion by that point. plus my arms are starting to hurt because of the effort having to get a hold of the float or someone, while we were in the wave. but still, i don't know where their energy are coming from but the others does not seem tired. so energetic, if that energy was applied in project development, there will be a huge progress.

then the next wave came, we went back to the same spot, i was hesitant, but they don't want to leave me alone @ 1.3, but this time i stayed in the float - wanting to survive without trouble :)). daphne was somehoe stronger than me so she just grabbed on the float. when the wave became more agressive, of course there's john to the rescue for her! woohoo. after the second wave, we left :) then we met keith, we were late though.

i think i did enough warm up. i shall start my report, to be submitted on monday morning! i'm not so sure i can make it, but i hope i will. wish me luck :) cheers everyone! i blogged again!

2009-12-16T19:43:00.006+08:00

THE YELLOW HAT. i am really into the six thinking hats. i just think its quite, uhm, somewhat useful? oh well its a nice blog title. okay, so why yellow hat? well because i just think that i shall just stop being pessimistic and start being optimistic! some great things can happen, just like no matter how annoyed about how i was unfairly treated regarding my MP grouping, i can still have a decent group (thank god!). and apart from this, the long agonising fact that had been in my mind for the past few weeks about what i shall do for my MP project has been completely handled - and i was thinking it was gonna be the hardest part of my TP life. you see, i have this little belief that generating an idea is the hardest part of whatever you want to do - coz i am infact narrow minded! - gosh i wouldn't even think that irrigation process is something to be very interesting in software development! - when i heard about that, the first thing that came to my mind - how in the bloody world am i supposed to measure the amount of water in the plants?! oh well, it really didn't matter that that idea was used already - it wouldn't even cross my mind, haha. that idea made me a little tiny bit nervous. but we have a rough idea what are the possible things to be done now! (thank god again!). i just have to focus on the process now and i know that it is NOT going to be easy - i kynda think it is the HARDEST part of my TP life now - but what can i do - i just have to do it anyways... and after i'm done with it i will give myself a huge treat!

okay i'm just gonna do some story telling now about DECEMBER 16, 2009 of LIZETTE.

it's just a very long day today.

i left the house @ 10 am. (well i have to be @ school @ 3 but i just can't stand my dad - he just complains and complains and show me an irritated look everytime he sees me - or everytime he's at home is more accurate actually) so where did i go? i went straight to orchard! oh yeah - i arrived there before 11 thinking of having a nice breakfast at mcdonalds! i am in love with cappuccino and they sell the cheapest and i really like it :) unfortunately mccafe in shaw house is outdoors and more unfortunately for me - it was bloody hot this morning! so i have to cancel out mccafe. i walked around and then i saw it - pepper lunch! and they have a student meal @ only 5.90! i still of course considered it, walked arounf isetan and i was in a land of sushi - so of course i bought sushi - and then, i still went pepper lunch coz the sushi was tasteless - i don't even know if that was tuna or just some pale brown thing. not a bad decision - they actually have free upsize for drinks! though its a student meal - its just perfect for me :) the normal one, i think is really quite too much for me (i can finish it okay?). i ordered beef pepper rice and pour a huge amount of honey brown sauce and more pepper (love it!). it was fantastic :) so after i emptied my huge cup of iced lemon tea, i went to walk around again. look at some make-ups (i didn't buy), saw the mango shop - having 50% off sale again (i didn't go in again - i just don't think mango clothes suits me, i've tried some and i really look sloppy with it haha). i went to far east - i always like going to far east when i'm alone - i went in every shop - i didn't buy anything of course - i am really really a very frugal person ;) i got bored of far east so i decided i'll just go tampines :)

so i went to tampines. tampines one first of course, hmm first shop that came into my mind - the swim wear shop @ level 2! i never had a decent swimwear yet! i have to have one! so i went there - gosh - its such a hard thing to buy honestly. so i kinda gave up a little - went to second destination - tampines mall - oooh a sale of shoes in the center of the mall - hmm - i went to look around - i really need some new shoes - sport shoes in particular - i have a nafa test on the 28th. but i really didn't find anything worth buying. hais. third destination - century square. there's another swim wear shop :) i went in and when i went out i had a new swim wear - you just can't go to a mall without buying anything, no matter how much you tell yourself you shouldn't.

after that i went to school, squashing my new swimwear into the black pouch in my bag because it looks like i bought it from a lingerie shop - i use see through bag. everyone asked me where's keith, and had a short brief explanation of how hardworking he is today! lol. finally knew my new MP groupmates. about that - let me elaborate. when the lecturer was looking for the file that will reveal the MP groupings. my heart was thumping, i was expecting the worse - gosh this is so freaking scary - the file was shown - gosh i can't find my name! and then i saw my groupmates... there was a huge relief :)

after that we went straight to the lecturer who's gonna help us and everything seems to be - finally - fine.

my mood is really quite lifted the whole day - coz i bought something new (honestly - it feels so so good for me! i rarely buy things, that's why its quite somewhat a thrilling experience) and i had a decent group. so to treat myself - i had a cappuccino!

2009-12-14T21:37:00.003+08:00

CHRISTMAS SEASON - is it?. it has been the christmas season for how long already and until now i haven't really felt it much. it just actually occured to me yesterday - @ work. apparently we are supposed to greet customer "MERRY CHRISTMAS"! i think it was a bit strange. haha. SG doesn't really have the feel.

as it is christmas season - it is holidays - school holidays - but that's not the case for me - i am in fact still "schooling". don't ask me what the quotations means if you know me, you'll understand :)

well probably the reason why i am not really feeling it because i am still imprisoned at home every weekend - which apparently is the time to explore the city and feel the christmas aura. it's really really annoying staying @ home on a friday night, saturday morning, afternoon, night, sunday morning, afternoon, night! gosh! does my parents had their 19 year old self locked at home too?! i don't think so! god i have no idea what is this thing all about honestly! i think i have the worst teenage life ever in the history of mankind!!! - well at least mankind in SG.

another reason might be - well i am still in a total despair with the MP thing. apparently - there are people from my workplace that quite sympathised with me :) i felt better when he said, "how come, omg, why don't you complain" - honestly that's what i am looking for - everyone keeps saying - "you can do it" or "can one la" or "aiya, you can do everything la". honestly people, not everything in this world goes perfectly and not everyone needs words of encouragement, i also need sympathy, i need someone who can feel what i feel and be as annoyed as i am - seriously - it helps. i think its just great to have people who encourage and"discourage" in a way - it tend to end up an encouragement afterwards - the black hat and the yellow hat - oh whatever. its just that i don't want people to think i can do everything perfectly because I CAN'T!

gosh i just love complaining in my blog. makes me feel good! :) that's all for today! ciao!

2009-12-12T16:11:00.001+08:00

UNFAIR. i just felt i was totally treated unfairly. i am about to have my major project, the 10 credit units subject with groupmates until now i have no idea. i don't know what the teachers are playing at honestly. why would they ask us to submit a group then they will totally ignore it. its totally unfair. i suppose the reason i just mentioned is not enough, so read further and i have more reasons to justify what i feel. few weeks ago i received an email being shortlisted for an interview and test for oracle, few days after that they sent me an email telling me it was a mistake and i am not supposed to be in the list - silly mistake huh?! false hopes for students, oh who cares - she's just a normal unimportant typical student. it's one of the most annoying things i've ever had in my life. the fact that i am doing MP first sucks. i feel like a sidedish in a plate full of 4.5 pounds steak, honestly, due to some reasons i think inappropriate to mention but if the person who's reading this is smart enough, you'll get what i mean.

i have a feeling in about 4 days you're gonna read a post full of more dismays.

i feel terribly terribly stressed! 10 credit units subject o-m-g. i was already stressed even when i was quite sure i will be doing my MP with kelly, hui fen and keith. now, my stress level is incomparable - not a good sign. i just want to warn my soon to be groupmates, i am not willing to get a low grade. i will demand more than what you're capable of and you don't have a choice but to make what you think impossible possible, even if you have to VOMIT codes out, i don't care, if this is too much, then say so, and we don't have to see each other again.

i just wish my SIP will be this March.

2009-12-07T00:59:00.004+08:00

GAIN AND SPEND. when was the last time i actually updated my blog where is stated something meaningful. i think i just totally have no time. not because of school i am sure of that, but other things - and i will love to know why i have to no time too - i have no idea!

today, i went back to work, everyone was asking me why am i there coa aren't i supposed to be studying for my exams - well obviously i wasn't. i just can't study at all, i tried holding a notebook in front of my face yesterday and i totally felt dizzy and fell asleep - gosh its starting to have a bad effect on me! lol.

as i have mentioned i went back to work today, well its just only sundays - the totally most boring day of the day at my workplace as it is always empty! oh well - sales are bad - what can i do, i guess there's just something called a sunday jinx a? haha. tmr = will be monday blues - i definitely will have one! damn i hate mondays! and to make things worse - FORMAL presentations @ 9am followed by a torturous 5 hours break of doing nothing and then a bloody exam which everything my brain contains, has nothing to do with it! horrible.

well to cheer things up, i bought something nice! i bought a cream/gel liner or whatever you called it from mac. the picture is below! :) i think its a nice thing to buy. got the idea from jen, my jd colleague, she said its worth it and she's been using it for more than a year and just used up half of it - cool, so i think i'd give it a try. i think its pretty brilliant, the container is really cute!!!

there you go, i need to iron my formal clothes and sleep! i feel like my bones are breaking - i am bloody tired! goodnight world!

2009-11-30T19:28:00.002+08:00

WINDOWS 7 and BBQ. such a great thing that i'm studying in iit school! we got a free windows 7! we had to endure a 2 hours talk though but its fine:)

after the talk keith and i went to eat bbq! we had nice food and its cheap! gosh very rare we go out, eat nice food but spend less than 10 bucks! :)

2009-11-15T19:01:00.004+08:00

salmon sushi and miso soup:)

beef with miso soup.

salmon mayo.

tuna inari.

natto.

baked salmon.

gyoza.

salmon carpaccio.

natto.

2009-11-04T21:30:00.003+08:00

CAPPUCCINO! i had two cups of cappuccino today - from mcdonalds! i actually like it. haha and it is of course much cheaper than starbucks or coffee bean or gloria jeans. i also like gloria jean's but they don't have promotion now - last time it was 3 bucks! so how did i actually had two cups of cappuccino today. here's the story...

i woke up really early this morning, about 7:40 am and i can't sleep anymore. my class is at 12pm, its a lecture so i actuallu have a choice of leaving the house probably about 12 pm, but i decided, since i already wake up, why not just leave early anyways. i left he house about 8:30 am. i was moving extremely slow. i decided to hang out at raffles city - i arrived there about 9:15! omg it seems like ALL the shops are closed! i was thinking what to wat for breakfast, walked at raffles city basement twice, walkd at city link twice - until i decided mcdonalds is the best choice! :) so i went to order sausage mcmuffin - with cappuccino!

after breakfast - still extremely early - i decided to just go tampines and take the bus from there. i arrived there at 10:30 am. omg time is so slow. i walked around tampines mall and tampines one. by time it reached 11, i decided to walk to bus 23, and i was so tired - and school haven't even started.

i was extremely bored during lecture - and then again i was reminded why i should not attend the lecture on wednesday. i really won't attend ANYMORE!

@ class. i was so focused in cafe world. i jsut started doing my work @ the last hour of the lab session and i think i somewhat finished my FILA chart anyways.

today is hafiz's bday. and we celebrated @ class. 21! wee!

after class, i decided to stop by raffles city again, i just can't bear the fact that i was there this morning and i didn't even had a chance to go inside any shop. i was hungry. so i then again decided to have a cappuccino i enjoyed this morning - and well, i enjoyed it again. haha. i was still frustrated though, i didn't get to buy anything. hais. why can't anything on sale fit my freaking foot! and i am so not gonna spend S$79.90 for a shoe, no matter how much i like it. god that's alot!

so i just went home. the train was terrible!!! i vomitted when i went home! i was extremely dizzy! i hate stupid trains like that!

2009-11-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

THE GG. ok. something new. i have watched heroes before and was totally caught by it fascinating story - at first. but admit it, the show is losing its thread - drastically. how i met your mother - was ok - fine - nice - still nice. that's all. where is this post heading to, well its just that after a long time, i finally decided to watch gossip girl :)). like what i have mentioned - life is becoming boring. i need some time consuming stuffs - and watching gossip girl answered it - its taking most of my time - actually - all of it.

let me have some viewer's honest review. the show is nice. not bad. well they are so called 'socialites', they're brats who annoys people, create a world war with just a stupid mistake, humiliate each other until all they wanna do is to be buried alive on the spot were they are standing to, unlimited vengeance, revenge here, revenge there, make everyone in the circle be their boyfriends and girlfriends (ok this sounds kinda nostalgic - seen it before in my highschool years - i was not in the circle - i'm an outcast when i was in hs. gosh. i wasted hs) but they all really have great fashion sense, and that's truly entertaining - love the clothes:) that's all. socialite teenager - not a bad life - exciting i must say.

2009-11-01T19:37:00.003+08:00

POINTLESS. totally. i've never been so annoyed with education. i'm supposed to be doing my project now. as in now. somehow my groupmate said we should be done on monday with our parts and i totally agreed. unfortunately i think that was because i was totally so want to leave the forsaken place. i am totally and perfectly not in the mood to perform my duties as a student now. i am so bored with my school work! its been going through all over my mind for the last few days that this term, with regards to the subjects i'm taking, "is the most pointless part of my educational life". why? firstly because, we are not learning anything new - its like de javu over and over again, why again? because i have done the same report before, totally the same and this actually extends to my second point of both subjects are the same!!! introducing unrealistic stuffs for the world! oh my god. what has happened to the world of education. basically this is the reasons of losing my mood in studying or even just being serious this sem. i know i need this, not in the oh-this-will-enhance-my-IT-career-way, but in a i-want-my-grades-way, and apparantly that's the only thing that's making me keep going.

oh i miss programming. too much reports makes me feel sick. yeah it does now. that was seems to be a miracle before. i want more practicals. seriously i think the economy is even more exciting than what i'm doing in school now, and that seems to be the most boring thing on earth - for me. i don't mind making a daily report about different thing, even current news events and presenting it in class, wearing formal, just to do something worthwhile. what i do at home now is do my nails for at least two hours - and its terribly annoying putting nail polish in my left nails! unfortunately due to the fact that i have nothing to do at home, my nails seems to be talking to me and telling me that there is one bubble in it and i have to redo it. damn its boring and annoying.

2009-10-18T23:03:00.003+08:00

THE END OF THE LAST. as they say, i just had my last holidays in my poly years, why, because i'm entering year 3. come to think of it, its pretty weird hearing things like that because from what i heard and seen from some of my friends, they have holidays in the middle of their year three. the days were they are waiting for their SIP. they can actually work! well maybe, its a different story for me. i'm an IT student and there is something called as the MAJOR PROJECT. seriously, it sounds like the most stressing thing in the world now.

anyways, as today is the last day of holidays, i decided to blog. and come to think of it, the past week is quite eventful that i actually have my holidays to be longer. as i was working for a month i had the crave to stay at home at weekdays. its pretty relaxing in a way. this is really a rare thing for me. really rare. first of all, i hate holidays because its like my days of imprisonment, second, there's nothing to do in life during holidays. but i'm starting to like doing nothing. not a good sign for year 3 in poly. uh oh.

last friday, keith and i went out to eat burger. not entirely huge ones like i was expecting. but it was much bigger than the typical fast food burger. well as usual, nothing so fantastic to expect from outside food - it wasn't fantastic - but fine. filling. ok.

"the fat basterd"

"the wimpy basterd"

after that, about 7pm, went to meet my old classmates, not so old, coz its only been a year i think. it was nice seeing them. gosh lia is so tall, wearing animal prints - she boomz as she descibed it. haha! i missed her. then, unexpectedly dinna was there, with her pink shorts and yellow top and her newly permed hair! omg. dun forget the neon pink toe nails. haha missed her to. its lucky i met her, she's only in the contry until today. busy girl. haha. anyways, when i was in marina square, i saw kai. one of my ex-colleague in dfs. haha. funny. such a strange way of meeting. lol.

below are the pictures i took on keith's birthday. wee:) we went out. was planning to eat the burger then unfortunately it was closed on mondays, so we went to eat at sushi tei. seriously, i feel like its becoming a tradition. last year, keith's birthday we also ate at sushi tei @ paragon. then my birthday, ichiban sushi @ great world. oh japanese food.

and i bought him a cake too! marble cheese cake from crystal jade:)

2009-10-04T23:00:00.003+08:00

THIS IS OMG. i've been staying @ home for two days now! i'm isolating myself though - like the usual me @ home. i've been spending ALL my time in my room, sitting in front of my laptop, waiting for something exciting to happen to me - which is totally impossible and dumb. i ran out of movies to watch - actually not totally, i have some korean movies given to us by my mum's friend - but i am TOTALLY feeling lazy to watch it. i scanned through it - yes and i think its not a good idea to watch them. all the lead actress died - typical korean movie - a tragedy - so it'll just probably add on the possible depression and insanity that i'll be facing in few more days if i will have no chance of going out. i am literally spending my whole day @ home and its really a proven fact that my dad prefers us to go insane @ home that wander outside - such a depressing matter to think about - sad! i just hope he doesn't bother me with the staying-inside-my-room routine. i swear the going-insane process will be much more faster when i stay with him in one room, watching some rat digging a hole in animal planet, or some people about to die because they're in the middle of whatever ocean it was - that was in discovery. omg its so terribly boring. i planned to post something short, but like usual, i'm enjoying the typing and the overwhelming amount of words that i want to spit out - two days without english conversation! scary! so what's new these days - nothing in my life. omg why?!

ok, the philippines was again almost got hit by a 3rd typhoon. a near miss. its just madness seriously, does these typhoons really can't help themselves forming?! and for god sake why philippines again?! anyways. lets talk about the rescue operations. i can't believe that even the rescue operations - more specifically the volunteers - still get criticisms. i think that its totally so stupid that there are people who criticize them. my god, its not even their(volunteers) obligation to help - they're volunteers - duh?? so why would people demand things from them. can't they think that without these volunteers, alot of people would be dead by now? i saw it in the news, a network station was criticized of not doing a good job - omg since when saving people's lives isn't a good job. seriously the people who actually sent the ridiculous messages mentioned in the news, in sms, are totally brainless. they are volunteers - and since when the word volunteer became a synonym of obliged?

i saw a quick run through of the latest tragedies the word had faced for the past few days/weeks/months (not sure). i just saw the part where philippines was shown. then they showed vietnam and cambodia experiencing the same thing. then there was the 2 earthquakes indonesia have faced, then there was also a tsunami in samoa - omg when are these things stopping?

2009-10-03T16:15:00.003+08:00

A HELPING HAND. almost the whole day, for the past few days, the filipino channel is showing videos, documentaries and news about how "ondoy" hit the philippines. a good thing is that when they show these videos, though they show the sufferings and destructions the typhoon causes, they never fail to show that there are alot of people who gives help, how they help, how they risk their own lives to help and how do they change other people's lives. i, myself is truly amazed by this fact as well. it's really amazing that this tragedy had made everyone equal - this massive destruction made it more visible that filipinos wouldn't leave anyone behind. i find the videos so striking not because of how much the flood had dominated a part of the country or how much had been destroyed, but by how many people help and how much help they give. regarding the media, i can say that by showing these videos, they are in fact helping so much. people who are not affected are more keen to help, and for the people who are affected, i believe that they feel greatful for what they see - people are there to help - there's always hope - and its so visibile. really an amazing thing.

2009-10-02T20:03:00.004+08:00

SIDELINES. so as i have mentioned i just had my last day of work 2 days ago - and in fact totally bored at home - and not enjoying my few more days out of school. on the other hand, long before i have ended my job there are already some other promotions waiting and i am supposed to work and of course get paid. however, i am really feeling so lazy about working in supermarkets. it so crowded and people are seriously aren't discreet while they are shopping. totally different from the airport. but, but, but, thinking about the money, i think i will have to stand those people and work. moreover, i won't be imprisoned at home, plus of course i don't have to stand the people who gets bored at my old job and when they do they just started scolding us - promoters for no reason at all - or probably for something so small - like for example, i was holding a serving tray - hand got tired - placed the tray on the bar, then half a second past, she was there scolding me for not doing my job - oh please. that's like duh?! half a second. don't we have human rights?! injustice.

these are the things i have been arguing to myself for the past few days.

being at home is so not fun. unless of course, i'm blogging (one of the things i enjoy, i guess). maybe because i actually haven't stayed at home for about 19 days now, so my body and so as my mind is craving to be outside everyday - its some sort of an i'm-used-to-it thing.

another thing i enjoy at home anyways is eating - the nice food only of course. in fact now, even i told myself i won't eat rice today, now i'm having my second helpings of rellenong bangus with rice. yum yum.

anyways, since i have nothing so interesting to post today, i'll just make it short. just going to talk about yesterday's day out. my mum and i went out. took bus to orchard (i nearly puked!). we went orchard central - mall review - isn't fantastic - smells so new (bad) - no people (bad) - so cold (bad) - nice new food stall (finally - good!). me and my mum ate a 12 inches sandwich from this place i can't remeber what. it has Q as its first letter and have "sub" in the end. then after that went ion orchard for the first time. not that fantastic i think. malls are just all the same now.

2009-10-01T00:31:00.005+08:00

FLOODED. this title means alot nowadays. personally it does. as again, my mind is flooded by alot of things and unfortunately i can't control it. another thing about this, is that the PHILIPPINES, my home country, had been hit by a disastrous typhoon, ruining many lives. it was a huge calamity. another inevitable thing... another thing that couldn't be controlled.

i just had my last day of work yesterday. actually about 14 hours ago and i must say, i am already getting bored.

2009-09-30T13:49:00.003+08:00

A FEELING.

my body froze..

after a few seconds, my heart keeps pounding like mad..

i try to talk but i heard every word i say seems to make no sense.. i was mumbling..

i walked away..

i tried to cool myself down.. it didn't work..

my face was burning, and so as my body, but my hands were as cold as ice..

i came back, giving up..

it took me an hour to finally get over it..

2009-09-24T00:31:00.004+08:00

DECISIONS. it's really a though thing to make decisions! gosh i hate that part of life! seriously, every decision that i make seems to be a matter of life or death. its just so freaking complicated. it probably like accounting - according to my friend - accounting exams are like you either get full marks OR FAIL. hell i hate accounting. i never understand what liabilities are or the main difference of debit and credit and all its crap - totally same as decision-making. troublesome, troublesome, troublesome.

keith and i, long time ago, decided to be the groupmates for the MP (i asked for some feedbacks about this - 2 in a group - they say CAN - i know we can but having to hear that feedback made me more confident). now the trouble is - the idea for the MP. hmm. such a hard thing to think about. i totally hate just thinking that i have to start thinking about ideas by now. but i'm totally empty. its just so complicated.

another decision i came up with. i decided that well, i am going to the jap exchange thing. unregistered. coz at first i was registered and since i kicked myself out from my supposed to be group (for the greater good)m i decided that i will be gatecrashing in a way. join keith's group one day, and then kelly's group the other. then on one of those 3 days, going to meet probably other friends to have fun! uh huh! i can have 3 days fun with alot of people! i think its a cool and fun idea. i totally hope so. my only chance to enjoy holidays.

just some nonsense stuff. i totally love sms-ing 3 people at one time. i missed doing it. last time - do more than five at a time actually - but here in SG - never. people here are not into SMS as much as in PHIL. anyways, why am i talking about this, coz the past two days, after work i was actually sms-ing 3 people at a time. and it was fun. my phone does not stop vibrating - and i totally didn't get bored in my trip home. last tuesday was with cindy, jonah and keith. then yesterday, amanda, berton and keith. hopefully i didn't send any wrong message. but it was fun. haha. how silly of the thought but its really rare for me nowadays. i'm such a workaholic so i dun have time to do much of this things that i notice even some of the slightest things that somehow seems to be fun.

anyways, bad news, i was late for 1 hour at work today due to the extremely long line of the police pass. hais! i called TL, called vendor, everything was fine. i lost 10 bucks because i was late. oh well. i hate changing pass!

2009-09-22T00:08:00.003+08:00

WORDY. i'm not sure why am i actually titled my post today as "wordy" maybe because i'm trying to make a long, thorough post or maybe there is just enough words to express what i want to convey tonight. there's just so much things that i want to say. not that there are so much things that happened to me - but my head is just doing so much thinking!

basic ones. i actually went to some bookstores and compare the prices of the lost symbol. here it goes: POPULAR - about 48 (20% off - so about 38), TIMES - 45 (i was offered 25% off - but there's a gst of 7% so its about 36), BORDERS - about 39 as i was told, MPH - 36 + 5 dollars voucher + mug (best offer so far ) - but i still feel its extremely expensive - so i didn't buy. sigh.

another basic thing. i just finished listening/reading confessions of a shopaholic. it was irritating. technically in the book, she didn't gave up the shopaholic-ness - totally different from the movie - the movie was better. wow - rare. haha. well this is my opinion. in addition to this - i just saw its sequel - i'll read it soon. i guess.

anyways, i am extremely exhausted - i had not been staying a whole day at home for about 8 days now. i was working during the weekend to. extra money - and the job isn't that bad - promotion of a certain product - not bad - NO RULES! amazing. just go to work - promote -break - promote - break - promote - go home! but the pay is lesser than the other promotion i'm doing. now i'm so trying to pin point the pro's and con's of each one of them.

WEEKDAY JOB - rules, rules, rules, RULES and more rules. tiring. totally + BOSS, big BOSS, and bigger BOSS. (oh please. need some break here). and its actually very far from my house. but the advantage - better pay - improve my communication skills. that's all.

WEEKEND JOB - flexible. NO RULES. BOSS are not that into it. near my house. 2 breaks. cons - rare people of my age. lesser pay - and god! my english would suck!

quite hard to choose. totally. i'm actually thinking of giving up the weekend promotion - but i feel that i'm spending so much that i actually have to gain more. specially that i'm going to be in year 3! i won't be able to gain as much anymore. and i swear i would need to serious cash!

speaking of year 3 - i am so getting stressed now. as in now. as soon as now. firstly - groupmates. i really think keith and i will settle to be the two of us only. oh well. but i need some miracle from above, maybe a little wisdom that can make me think of some heavenly idea that would give me an amazing great mark for my MP. omg - a miracle. (i feel like hoping of winning a lottery - like how becky did in COAS!) all i know now is i need to think now - as in now.

everything just seems to be so stresssful now - i just realised that somehow i feel like i want to go to the jap exchange thing. i wouldn't be doing anything on those three days and the other will get to enjoy. yeah spending money is involved - but - isn't it worth it? i can have fun - but - come to think of it - how much fun could i actually get from that - hais. is it really worth it? more worth than staying at home - relaxing - GETTING BORED. oh my reasoning seems to be contradicting each other. I WANT TO GO - but it feels like I'M JUST NOT MEANT TO GO. well maybe they already deleted my name - so no point discussing and making so much fuss about this thing.

GPA GPA GPA. since the first release of the freaking results - i've been trying my very best to reach that 3.9. its just extremely difficult that until now - i still can't. hais - its just so disappointing. dun i deserve that "9" there??? seriously - am i not trying hard enough! omg! and omg again. i wouldn't make it to the director's list again. so sad - really. coz unforntunately, aside from the fact that CDS is so not included. a B+ ruined my chances. hais. sad life. makes B+ makes so much difference from A!

somehow that weight in my head had actually been reduced. i just wanted to blog i guess - for the past few days already haha. it's somehow becoming my comfort zone. hais. there's probably alot more things i can say but i think its pretty uncool to tell my whole life here. haha.

anyways, these past few days - people kept asking me why am i working. omg. they totally misunderstood me. i looked so desperate to them probably. and they also felt sorry for me. haha. alot of people thought i was malay and should be celebrating Hari Raya - but i was at work. really funny. until now - alot of people have mistaken me of being a malay.

i actually had a pretty wordy post. but - honestly - its summarised to the fullest. i just want it quick but contains alot.

2009-09-17T16:54:00.001+08:00

TALES OF BEEDLE THE BARD. i just bought the book. don't wanna waste the chance of getting a 25% discount. and now i'm still deciding if i should buy Dan Brown's new book - THE LOST SYMBOL. god, its tempting. and i can get the freaking discount too!!! plus the GST about $36. i need some suggestions - should i buy it? (pls tag your answers - its much appreciated! lol). gosh the book looks really exciting!!! i'm currently blogging in the airport now. and gotta go back work now - so i'll end my post here ~ ciao!

2009-09-11T01:11:00.003+08:00

UNVEILED. it is again the time of release of the most celebrated and sometimes loathed exam results. i have mentioned my excitement from knowing my results from yesterdays post, so when i woke up this morning, i know it was really about to come, i was then filled with so much anxiety. my dreams - nightmares - didn't help.

i received my results before noon - the B+ was the very first thing that caught my attention - again! why does it always happens. well i can't do much. i think alot of people did very well in this semester - some improves so much and probably some went down drastically - it was a tough sem - every single mistake is noticed - and that what made me realise the difference between B+ and A - it was remarkably huge - and it was really scary. i lost alot - and it was kinda frustrating. but to be more optimistic - i have my gpa retained - i guess - i hope.

anxiety seriosly dominated me the whole day - i was sort of irritable - and fortunately i managed to scare one person - that cheered me up abit - it was really funny - i have a talent. it wasn't that bad - its just trying to make the person know who he's dealing with - and i managed to introduce myself quite accurately to him. i didn't perform well at work but i realised i was pretty much more aware of my surroundings than ever - somehow my common sense is still working so i manged to cover up my absent-mindedness today. when the boss was in a way lecturing us all over again - i can tell my face was no reaction - i wasn't paying attention - my mind is stagnant to the results - like what i said - for the whole day.

i'm pretty tired, but i have no idea how am i able to sleep. thinking that i lost my position - one of my main concerns - i really think that will pretty much depress me for quite some time. everytime crucial moments occur and i want a position badly - it turns out the opposite way - and its a big deal for me. maybe i have mentioned before - i ranked 4th last time in my secondary school - the best i had - then when i graduated - i was 13th - i can never forget that thing - and somehow i am still grieving about it.

hope i can sleep. its pretty late. and i think my english kinda sounds weird and stupid. i gotta sleep. nyt!

2009-09-09T23:55:00.002+08:00

IRRITATION. i totally don't understand why my patience is just being more and more tested nowadays, and i can say that this is totally making me reduce the amount of irritation i can cater.

one thing, i have been working there for almost a year and there's this one particular person that everytime i am working, she will definitely find a single thing that she can comment on me. today - she doesn't know my name and she probably thought i was new again, she said it seems like there are circumstances that i don't know what i was doing. ya right?! she's the only one that says that. i know that i know what i am doing and have proven it alot of times for more than probably the people she expected would have seen my performance, and as far as i can see, i still have the freaking job. i really think, there's something else. it didn't happened once. seriously, i can't hide my irritation while staring at her hypocritical face.

another thing, i registered to assist the japanese exchange student that will be coming here next month. everything was settled - and so i thought. then i have received information that need to stay up till 9+. can probably be arranged. then, suddenly, only 4 people per group - ok fine, i'll just won't go or find a nice group. option one - considering the seal points - it shouldn't be an option at ll. option two - maybe. then today i realised there isn't probably an appropriate group for me - so fine i think option one was my destiny. and then another info came - 5 people is allowed - but its more expensive as they say - because of the package thingy. oh well. then another info came - no its not more expensive. hmmm. this is getting more and more troublesome - so i decided. I'LL JUST STAY HOME :) - to a simpler life.

one last thing. i was told by quite a couple of people, my classmates, my friends, my colleagues that results willl be coming out today - it didn't! hais. we were all expecting it at work - well most of us are from tp. but we were all disappointed. wrong information seems to disappoint alot of people.

2009-09-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

ABSOLUTELY. seriously i had so much difficulties thinking of today's blog post title. aside from the fact that i just posted something yesterday, i'm pretty tired to thing so i just put that. i just concluded that i am absolutely irritated with a person i met today. well he's pretty childish and immature. i think that tomorrow i will have this confrontation and will ask him if he cannot stop talking non-sense and rudely to me - we better just don't converse at all. rude people are just not welcome in my life.

that's all for today - quite tired. gotta sleep.

2009-09-05T22:31:00.004+08:00

WUTHERING HEIGHTS. after reading the book and watching the movie i just realised that it was in fact an interesting novel. there were some trivia during the movie, it says that it Emily Bronte wrote only this novel before she died at a very young age (i think its the trend in the 1840s as more than half of the characters in the book died at a very young age). another thing that due to its contoversial contents it was also subjected to be burnt, fortunately it was published and not burnt - obviously.

at first i was totally uncertain about the theme of the story, as i have read from twilight, it was a love story, a girl having to choose between some coward guy and a mean guy. then Catherine or Heathcliff somewhat mentioned that they are each other's life - sounds like a typical love story to me from those parts mentioned. when i read it though, it was totally different from a typical love story. controversial indeed! then it wasn't totally a love story - there's so much contradiction - it wasn't a love story i think - too much anger and revenge, insanity that somewhat leads to hallucinations - its OBSESSION NOT LOVE.

the story was somewhat annoying though, Catherine and Heathcliff seems to be two people who experience insanity due to their immeasurable love for each other - i think. it was a story that's full of revenge and anger which seems to be so pointless (on the other hand the movie seems to lessen that stupid idea - the revenge thing made more sense). furthermore, a woman marrying a man for his money and name - sounds typical for some people probably, (but) then after the marriage she's going to be so proud showing her old lover to his husband as someone who she cannot live with? oh god - i think she's pretty stupid - too young to commit to marriage - how sad - and how stupid for the husband acting to cool with the old lover. the story was quite difficult to understand as it was focusing in two generations - a very long period of time, plus i have no idea to which side should i take. definitely not the main character's side! Heathcliff is such a cunning person - insane - obsessed with catherine. not Edgar - coward. not Cathy - insane and obsessed to. not Catherine - brat. not Linton - no idea what's his essense - another coward. Isabella - gullible. i think i just feel sorry for the Linton's, they are victims of the curse brought by Heathcliff to the Earnshaw's house. well if i were to choose a character that i liked the most at least - i'll settle to Hareton - he is totally innocent.

enough of that. i just started work again a week ago. promoting JD of course. well its a fun job again having to stop for 2 months, so cannot complain anything about it. i was scheduled 4 days a week though so i am pretty wasting 3 days. my boss asked me if i want to work on the weekends - a supermarket job - no idea what is to be sold - but i feel like considering it. well yeah the people who i will meet will totally be different from the people departing at changi airport - and that's somehow annoying - but i need money!

i'm pretty lazy to blog. but i wanna mention this for once. i was working with mae the other day, she's one of the co-promoters i love to work with, we do have so much fun. haha. and our sales are not bad either. well, i mentioned her because i'm just so proud of her being so happy in her first relationship! well she's jubilant about it and i'm happy for her. last time we were talking about her not having a boyfriend and anything within that scope - poor girl haha! and now "boyfriends", such a girly topic - thank god she's in.

i miss having a girl close friend. its like someone shares your mind. F-U-N!

i just discovered something so sensitive about something i do not wish to mention. but i got it from a very reliable source and i think she didn't intend to say it but due to my interrogation i made it slip from her mouth. gosh i don't know how significant this information is but apparently it didn't actually surprise me, i have expected it. but it was really something and it made me feel strange. but the information didn't make me understand them more or anything near there. i want to use it for my own good. but how? when?

2009-08-25T21:29:00.004+08:00

X-FACTOR. i can't think of any weird, exciting title for the post today so i just decided to stick with this. well basically because when i opened yahoo sg, i found this article discussing about an audition in X-Factor - i think a reality show in UK - and apparently the person named Danyl Johnson, wow-ed Simon Cowell. i've read some of the comments of his performance not being so amazing as some have actually did better than him, however, maybe this audition by this guy, being his first audition, seems to be somewhat great. good voice, stage presence, confidence and great choice of song. it's not his fault that he chose a song with a powerful background, it just means that he can choose a winning song - a talent too - how many candidates have actually lost a competition because of the wrong choice of song. so somehow, i see simon's point. it doesn't seem true at first - maybe people thinks he's amazing coz simon says so. but in my opinion, simon was right. he was good. has the x-factor in his first audition. knows how to tickle the audience - overall, great performance - a YES from me - in a judge's point of view. haha. here's a link of the video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FA5DkFUSxk.

today ericko and john had a cooking lesson with keith. they made pasta. one tomato based and another cream based - or should i say cheese bases. haha. we ate alot! the pastas were nice - ericko chopped onions and tortured the bacon - great experience! haha. we also played a game ericko brought which i think named "dominion" or sounds like that. it was fun - but of course - i am terrible at card games, i had the most vague mind probably and i lost like mad - 5 victory points - pathetic. but i'm giving incentives for at least trying to play the game - it was an improvement - card are not my type - but surprisingly - i had fun.

the eating ceremony!

i think i did ate alot. i didn't eat dinner anymore - well aside from apple pie and cotton candy again - i'm just getting addicted to it. it's very nice. i want to have a final destination marathon before i watch the movie :) nothing much to talk about anyways. haha.

2009-08-21T13:12:00.002+08:00

BACK UP. this is my 201st blog post and i have decided that my blogging has actually somehow became a part of my life and that everything i wrote here is something worth remembering. then i realised what if one day blogger.com just suddenly crashed and everything that i have written disappeared! i can't let that happen. so i decided to copy all my posts! this is the word count from MS Word after i have copied all my blog posts! this is 200 posts from december 2006 to yesterday. haha. thousands of characters, words, and paragraphs and hundreds of pages :) nice! i can't afford to lose them!

2009-08-20T22:50:00.004+08:00

AS PROMISED. i was thinking of putting "crazy freaking b*tch" as my title for this post but its my 200th post and i think its better if the title is not so bad. sorry for the slight vulgarity - or not - its a crazy freaking female dog. just wanna clarify, this blog post is as promised - in a different mood as yesterday. why? first of all, like i said, school just officially ended yesterday. second, i really had so much fun today. third, i was tired no because of school and projects but of having fun! quite a long time since i went our with that number of friends. thank god my 200th post is good! lets start the story.

everyone met 11 am at dhoby ghaut interchange. i was the first one there of course, i seem to always see that the train no matter what distance would travel about an hour - i dun wanna change that - i think its not a bad habit to always be there on time or before that time. apparently only one was late - hui fen. we were headed to hotel miramar. i thought, or so as we all thought we wouldn't have trouble getting there. then there we were unsure of the direction we were heading suddenly. as for kelly and i were the only girls that time - we don't have to do anything but to wait for the guys to do the information gathering. after that point we walked to where we are supposed to go - then suddenly - john started to run. no one has an idea why - but we were all running. its looks so so weird. plus i was wearing a dress and the wind just keeps blowing it everywhere. what's more i was wearing slight heels. it was a nightmare. i was running, it was so hot, i'm trying to keep my dress in place and my shoe feels like going to fly. after figuring out that john was actually rushing for the bus - we ran more but - we didn't catch it. the bus stop was so so far - it was impossible to catch the bus seriously. so few meters away from the guys - kelly and i stopped running. then we were all gasping for breath - and hungry like mad. the next bus came not long after we reach the stop - we shouldn't have ran in the first place! - the surprising thing was - cindy was there! (plus some weird things happening inside the bus. haha).

when we reached the hotel. we went straight upstairs to orient ocean restaurant to have our dim sum buffet! i think i weighed twice after i ate for 3 hours - well the chatting part was really long anyways. first round, simon ordered a hell lot of food. i thought i can't fit it in but i managed to. the digestion in my body seems to be happening really really fast. halfway through the first round - hui fen came - the big eater! i had a feeling round two will be soon and crazy. i really have no idea of what's the name of most of the things i was eating - they know it and they tell me what's nice - every time they say the chinese name - i try to say it but none of it actually registered inside my mind - i think its not so necessary - they're there. haha. the sweet and sour fish was really nice. love the sauce. i really ate alot i think. all of us actually. wonder how many kilograms of prawns did we actually ate. haha. so the second round was then again surprising. and i was still in the mood to eat and still have some space for food - so i tuck in - again. haha. during the dessert - i had two cups of mango pudding. i don't eat mango pudding - but i just ate and loved it! i didn't eat so much dessert. but cindy and john and kelly did. lol. keith had one cup only. ericko - alot too. simon - probably also one cup. haha. maybe no more space in their tummy - haha! too much dim sum! but the most surprising thing is - i had an incredible amount of chinese tea - scary - i have a tiny bladder.

the attack of the tea happened directly after we got into the bus. oh sweet. i have no freaking idea what to do. i'm trying my best not to think of it but it is insanely overtaking my senses! damn freaking small bladder! why why why! when we got down - keith took action of course - thank god he's there. he sent me directly to the nearest place that has toilet and i think i peed more than half of the liquid in my body. haha! i was relieved.

after the scary incident. as planned we went to cathay to watch movie of course. we decided to watch "orphan". the show was two hours after we booked the tickets so we had so much time. walk here walk there. when we got tired - the guys decided to play lan game and the girls decided to chill in a better relaxing way. look for coffee. we were eyeing starbucks but honestly the sweet coffee smell of starbucks makes me somehow sick. since we only want to chill and sit down - we walked around and looked for chairs. we ended up in ya kun. i ordered coffee - they gave me tea. dunno why. lol. so we chit chat there for probably about an hour then the guys called and we went upstairs for the movie. :)

orphan. (warning might contain spoilers!) the movie was really something! its scary and irritating and good! i feel like i was kynda shaking in the end actually. omg. and its the main reason of considering the above mentioned about-to-be-title of my blog post today. the main actress - the orphan - is a crazy freaking b*tch! at first i was thinking of the movie "uninvited" and said to myself that if the orphan was something like that i swear i will be the most disappointed person in that theater - i was wrong. another theory was that, when the mother found the picture inside the bible - maybe it was like "phone" the foreign horror film where the little girl was possesed by an older girl who happened to like her dad that she actually started kissing his father intimately. if it was like that - it was fine - but it wasn't! i had some thought of the hormonal imbalance when i realised she's not near getting possesed by some evil spirit - but was quite unsure - she seems to be too convincing as a child - irritating manipulative girl! she's really a good actress. great acting skill that i want to slap her as i hated her like crazy. well i think the movie was really very well made coz apparently alot of people was carried away that they actually clapped at the end of the movie! haha! i didn't. can't move - the chinese tea was attacking again. but that's a record - i didn't go out at the middle of the movie to go to the ladies - there's too much things happening in the movie!

my day was really filled. a nice start for the holidays! we took quite a number of pictures and hope it'll be uploaded soon. i'll post it as soon as i got them. :) now i'm sleepy - haha. time to sleep :)

2009-08-19T19:59:00.003+08:00

TEMPER. i have made it clear to myself that my temper is just incredible. with the amount of times i have to use for my family - most specifically for my sister, and of course my father, i was under the impression that i am in fact have incredible amount of patience - i was wrong. well this post seems to be trying to let myself down, nope it doesn't, in fact what i am trying to say here, that apparently i have the capability to get pissed so much in public, pissed in a way that i could lose my control - yes its bad - but treating in a way that i have done something i have never done before is just - not impressive - shocking.

it seems like the losing of my temper didn't have to happened at home at all. unbelievable. it is like the place that mostly irritates the hell out of me, most of the time, as what i have described it before. but no. in fact it was the place i was so eager to go to after the loss-of-temper thing happens. i just feel cooled down and relaxed. i don't have to talk to anyone, i could just pretend doing my homework in front of my laptop - do something - entertain myself - and done - i feel fine. though there's still the irritating commands from my parents - which i have so far adopted to in a way - the irritation takes place - but like what i said - i had alot of practice in it.

lets talk about the main issue. why in the world did my temper reached to the extreme - twice - this week? i want to blame the haze. but no. the rain still keeps the country cooler than the past few years. it wasn't that. i think its just the immeasurable provocation of the people involved. now i'm thinking should i mention names? better don't. i wanna keep my blog wholesome in a way - not shouting words of irritation towards people.

ok. firstly last monday. the first incident - i want to keep this thing clear - specially for the people who are probably totally convinced that i am evil - twice. i know there were some. "hypocrites" - the best words for them. probably the person who wrote my name in the toilet door was jubilant - or not. i was pissed that day because my groupmates where just so uninterested to do a group task - totally. i had group mates before that are uninterested but i can manage - or they could manage to show some interest in some point in a way - this one was different - it was like no other - intolerable as i addressed it - when i said intolerable - it is intolerable - my tolerance level is extreme - i lasted 3 straight years living with my dad and i still have no plans of rebellion lol. i am aware about the fact that apparently there are other projects to be done - fine i'm clear with that but didn't i had the same amounts of projects? maybe if they were just not looking every four hour lesson in the internet, surfing some trashy websites and wasting time - everything would have worked out smoothly - but even though i told them those kinds of things - they never listened. and another thing - if they are totally uninterested to do few freaking paragraphs for a 2 credit unit subject - why should they deserve these 2 credit units? so i made my move - this is the very first time i did something like this in my entire life - meaning - something extra ordinary causedth it - i went on my own - do the freaking paragraphs and leave my groupmates with the freedom of choosing to do or not do the task. i don't have to care anymore actually - unfortunately - i still have a little kindness in me and not totally let them down - i hope they appreciate it - i told them to do the task and somehow i think i motivated them to do it by doing what i did, they were suddenly so interested to do it. its fine if they didn't appreciate this kinds of things - apparently i think they've learned their lessons. i really hope so. and i'm very much contented with that. i think we're cool anyways.

now the second incident. just happened this morning. alot of people might not understand me - but probably alot would too. the scenario - there's a test that covers 5% of a 4 credit units subject. a test - great. what is the expected ambience? tranquility - perfect peacefulness - this was totally not present during the test. for the whole time i was holding the paper i can hear buzzes. it was irritating. when some people finished the paper there was worst. i tried to shoosh some of them - and they responded with just a look - easy. thank god they understood - unfortunately some people just doesn't have the capability of understanding that silence should be observed during exams. i thought that was taught in kindergarten. was it really that hard to understand that? i can't remember myself or anyone i know before that acted like that. i mean its fine if you are talking to a teacher - i would appreaciate if the person is still aware that an exam is ongoing - and lessen her tone - nope no awareness. i was fine with it. nothing to fuss about. i was still relaxed. after the conversation is done - the buzzing grew louder - some of the smart ones shoosh them - no effect. the temper was starting to rise. not a good sign. keith tried to calm me down - not helping - the buzzing is growing louder and louder - and continuously - nothing else is coming into my mind but that - then it happened. with the amount of noise in the room, the answer i was about to write just slipped my mind. i totally forgot about it. i had more terrible exams that today's but never had it happen that the answer i was about to write at that very moment disappear in thin air. the freaking buzzing sound! i made my move - everyone got shocked and the buzzing stopped - i continued answering. i was shaking with fury honestly. i had some other plans in mind - more bitter ones but i don't like to do it - too comprehensive. maybe next time if someone tries to test me again.

after the incident, i just discovered something very very surprising for me at least. not for keith - he knows it from the very start. its just that i am very trusting and patient to some people even if they don't deserve it. i got eyes everywhere people. thanks for the extra help i am getting from my real allies. they know who they are - they tried to calm me down so much earlier. so sorry guys. hais. i wouldn't have survived without them earlier. specially cindy. she tried to erase my name in the toilet door and told me its possible but needs some effort. i said not to worry - not worth the effort - its better to stay there - a good reminder to the childish immature brainless girl who wrote at the door. but i did appreciate cindy's effort so much. and today she just helped me realise something again. the class got real HYPOCRITES. BACKSTABBERS. have i mentioned i hated that so much?! i just want to mention something - for maybe some of them - i never thought i would do this - but i think i have to - YOU WOULDN'T HAVE PROBABLY PASSED WITHOUT ME - too general yes. and more. I HOPE YOU COULD LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND ASK YOURSELF, ARE YOU WORTH IT TO DO SOMETHING OF THIS SORT TO ME? if yes - talk to me and tell me the answer. you are very much welcome.

i'll really try to post a different mood one tomorrow - or later - its the last day of school and tomorrow i'm going out! i got some new pics to show probably. i bought a new case for my laptop finally, the one i like, something that really makes me cool down the most is buying something for myself - and so i did. :). another thing - the mall - the malls - i spent one and a half hour in tampines earlier. went to the three consecutive malls and eat an almond caramel pretzel! yum yum i felt better. then i sat in the train - i felt really tired - i slept all the way from tampines to lakeside! really relaxing - now at home - more relaxing - after blogging - i'm all cheered up! :) back to normal. stress is over. the aftermath is starting to appear - cough, headache, slight colds but i'll try to avoid the cough and the headache at least. the colds - quite hard to. since when it became inevitable - and i am not considering 200 shots of vaccines for immunity. i can live with it.

2009-08-12T11:17:00.003+08:00

LOST GENERATION by JONATHAN REED.

I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within.”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy.”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
work
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it .

2009-08-11T21:18:00.004+08:00

SO OVER WITH XML. the xml project was done and i'm so over it. i'm so exhausted today looking at all the codes of Part A, Part B, and Part C. my head is aching like mad, i think i must have looked out thousands of code lines today troubleshooting for alot of people. now that most of them have their programs are working perfectly, i told them that its time for them to teach the rest of the class - i just hope this wouldn't be a giving-away-codes situation. hui fen's codes was halfway through when i helped her, just needs the loop thingy. li zu doesn't have that problem - thank god - its such a freaking long process - one part was nearly done, the other poorly executed but maanaged to mend it after few tries. then kelly's - weirdest errors you could encounter - but somehow my best student - haha. chin seng's - with keith's initial codes - i went sort of insane at first - its just so hard to understand his codes - but managed to make it work. i just hope that they would help the others. its their turn :) i observed chin seng was helping husna, then hui fen to justin, then li zhu said he will help azry. so far so good :) hope everyone's gonna pass!:) goodluck! anyways a huge suggestion to everyone - DON'T CONNECT TO THE INTERNET!!! - trust me, your program will work! (purely based on my observation)

2009-08-08T16:02:00.003+08:00

XML. i think its time for me to make "XML" a blog post title. i kynda finished my XML assignment but still rectifying minor errors. and i'm not so progressing with it. arraylist is again giving me inexplicable problem. i have no idea why but it's really irritating. i'm supposed to be out to day doing XML but apparently chin seng would only be make it at 2 and keith have to leave before 6. keith's was totally in favor of me but 2-6? would that be enough? so we just cancelled the plan. probably meeting on monday if there's a need to. fortunately, keith and i - no plans doing the assignment yesterday - ended up doing it. he kynda figured out quite alot of stuff and managed to do alot of stuffs. i somewhat did the same - if what i did is correct. schema schema schema. .xsd to validate .xml. i managed to do it but i'm not sure if that's what we were supposed to do. i so have nothing to do now. felt like trouble-shooting projects but no one's asking. hehe. i so don't mind helping now. some may need my help later but i can't go online tonight. lol. like usual - no internet access when my dad's home :(

listening to songs now, my classic favourite - because you loved me by celine dion - and some more old songs. somewhat becoming nostalgic when i got nothing to do. i think i'll be watchin "how i met your mother" or probably continue my second round of reading of the twilight series fourth book - "breaking dawn" - i really find some parts quite funny. stephanie mayer got some humor on her - smart ways of delivering them are a plus. i kynda read some lines like "burning live puppies" - bella was saying it, then when carlisle was explaining some bio stuffs to jacob and then jacob said "can you DUMB it down a little?". there's also this line - not original from her maybe but i like it - "did you know that 'i told you so' has a brother? his name is 'shut the hell up.'" its from the simpsons as bella said. i find it really useful :) haha.

2009-08-06T22:47:00.004+08:00

I WAS LATE! WTH!!! i woke up so early and reached the train station so early and i was late. why? because the train was stuck for ages! i have no idea why! i asked my teacher if will i be marked late coz obviously i wasn't the only one who was affected by the freaking late - he answered me "if that is the case, you should go to the control station and ask for a letter about the delay" - that sounds like a long form of "no" - oh perfect - i was kind of irritated seriously, my travelling has really never been an issue but it had been coz i was blaming almost everything this morning because i was so pissed - for the train delay, for being late - and marked late! some teacher wouldn't make so much fuss - its a normal school day.

i blogged - because - in fact - it was quite an eventful week. i like this week - it was just so rare to have this kind of week - peaceful yet not boring - irritation and misfortune occurs but it feels more of a life than the other past weeks. thank god. maybe because i was so caught up in my project - which is programming - which makes me more happier in school, or because i tend to feel sleepy very early making my day better - longer sleep makes a good day. i wan't to blog basically about every single moment of my week! i tend to notice even small things that i rarely pay attention to. it was fun. haha. let's start. of course i can't say everything but i'll try my best to explain as much as i could.

monday: morning was fine, i was so tired because of the long day at the mall the day before. surprisingly when i arrived in school everyone was as tired as i was - or probably worse - MONDAY BLUES - it was really funny, everyone just wants to curl up and sleep but we have to at least be abit energetic - its monday - i managed to - it was ENCM presentation - the teacher kind of rush me - so like my usual presentations - i was speaking fast like mad - and clear at least. haha. afternoon class was CMSK - meeting practice - my group was down to 2 people - hafiz and me - dian was up to a med check up - chin seng was "sick" haha. well he IS kynda sick. he was red - i can imagine how he feels - the problem is he was telling the truth but he looks like he's faking it. it was really funny. the teacher agreed to let him off though. the explanations from him didn't help i think but like i said he was red. really look sick. so we were left 2 people - my teacher split us up to join the other groups since two of our classmates are not in class - they're at level 7. daph was sick - and cindy, her own personal nurse! during break time, we went to visit her and i was really impressed by the bond that this class i'm in was. the picture of ericko and shi-bin at the end of the bed with cindy, john, hui fen, kelly, hazry, justin (did i miss anyone? sorry! tell me and i can update) looks like a scene from a movie - family oriented movie. it was really cute!

tuesday: ECSA was the first subject - i was slacking the whole morning - until now - i haven't progressed even a bit in my assignment 3. i was too lazy and still am. haha. the teacher asked us what do we know about PCI DSS and out of nowhere i said "i only know the requirements" and i just said it in the right part that i think he thought i know what i'm doing. that will do for the day haha. during BSIT, it was pure programming - i felt the total exhaustion ultimate-logic-part-of-your-brain-usage gives me. it makes me tired like i just had my 2.4. i went home and i was extremely exhausted still. i forced myself to do the program but i didn't succeed, the bed was calling me like crazy and i was soon to getting hopeless with what i was doing coz i was staring for it for hours and still not figuring out what i'm supposed to do to correct what is wrong. that was hard - coz i have no idea what was wrong. 1 person was not in school.

wendesday: i was still getting crazy with the failure-of-my-codes-to-execute-properly thingy so i asked ericko to look at it. i don't think he found the problem before our teacher saw that we were doing something so unrelated to his subject - so i have to drop the programming craziness and do the lab for the subject - ENCM. but i couldn't take it. i then again asked keith to look at it but the teacher was walking everywhere - not possible to focus - so i really decided then to close the program. ECSA was then again in another slacking-for-4-hours theme. i tried to do some, but i just can't. it wasn't possible. i was so so lazy. so for the 4 hours i just walk around, talk, watch keith, ericko, chin seng and simon. a thought came to my ming. how could people could actually be addicted to this game when they actually kept dying. when everyone were killing each other that they can't even last for a minute in the game, the teacher watched too and started to commenting and they were all laughing. huh? oh well. at the end of the class - if you can call it a class - keith, simon and i spotted chin seng with his girl. he turned red so fast - he does always haha - he introduced me to his girl - "she is called lizette" - omg, i sound like a thing like "this is called a book" or an animal "this is called a cat". i was laughin at the thought though. hehe. then he blamed his lousy grammar. haha. when i got home i went to check out my program - i managed to solve my problem so fast! it was surprising - i was exuberant! i was solving it for 2 days in a row already! its about time i solve it right?! and it was in fact kind of stupid. and i didn't waste my sudden productivity and managed to finish the initial requirements of the assignment! great great great! 2 people were not in school.

thursday: today. it was quite a long day, aside from the fact that i was stuck in the train, my stomach just don't shut up. it just keeps growling over and over again and i seriously think that, that messed up my temper. during class break time - i ate chicken rice and i was really really fast! i managed to add more stuffs in my program just to make it more realistic. then afternoon came - after a huge meal at design school we went to the lab we're supposed to meet our teacher who will lend us the lab to finish the project. while waiting - ihave no idea where the idea came from but they said thta all filipinos are good singers! ALL?! they're mad. unfortunately, i don't have the freaking talent. i don't know why but maybe because my sis took all the talents i could have. except for the speech part haha. they were insisting me to sing but hell no. i wouldn't humiliate myself trying to sing. haha. i'm really no good at it. i wish i could though - who wouldn't?! i have to leave awhile though - @3pm i was at one of the labs at level 3 - i was to say some lines in front of a video cam! it was nerveracking! i had no idea i have to do this. term teaching gives us the taste of the real-life work environment and helps us pick up time and project management skills. oh yea! whatever!

but i just had an IIT badge. this was the thing i was talking about on my past post - an opportunity in a way - it was quite thrilling to have people notice my little speech talent. i'm quite a little aware of it haha. i joined lots of speaking contests when i was in primary 1,2 and 3. but it surprised me of course. i thought i've given up with that skill since then - coz of a horrible defeat. i didn't really accept that defeat - and still haven't. i have no plans. so when the thing was over - thank god - i went up to the lab - and do the the programming again. this time i have to start on the additional parts. xml schema. no idea how to use it. oh well. PBL PBL what can i do. 3 people are not in school today. hmmm.

enough for my novel. i have to discover the wonders of xml schema. :) anyways i shot some videos in class earlier and i don't know if i should post - i still have a little of considerations and concerns for the people involved. i think i gotta ask their permissions. but its quite a jaw-dropping-kynda-thing video. haha.

2009-08-03T11:30:00.002+08:00

WHIPPED UP. i can't believe i'm typing a blog post now - it's just that i am so getting bored because someone is talking to much and i have no idea what he is talking about. i just had my ENCM presentation - it was fine, my teacher felt a little threatened with the amount of slides i have - 21 slides and he thought that i will take forever in my presentation - wrong - me? present long? hell no. i will try my best to present as fast as i can but as clear also - ended up - i presented less than 10 minutes i guess. which is good. and i think that i have elaborated all my points precisely - and - omg - i wasn't nervous! the presentation was pretty casual and i truly know my topic :)

i should have blogged yesterday but i was too tired to so i just sat in front of my laptop and watch "how i met your mother" - i finally reached season 2. after a long time, my mum, sis and me went out to shop! we went a bugis junction coz my mum wants to fulfill her $200 shoe dream (she did! omg! omg!) bugis got crazy sale. i saw a shoe and i'm thinking of buying it... but i still don't need it. its a formal shoe - great for work - and for presentation - uhm.. should i buy it??? omg here i go again.

anyways. about the title - totally non-sense - i jus think that the amount of my whipped cream and caffeine intake is getting insanely huge. i'm so gonna get super fat in few days. - i'm trying to stop - but i just love it!

2009-08-01T19:17:00.003+08:00

G2000 is on 70% OFF!!! HURRY!!! i am so much a great fan of G2000. aside from the fact that IMM outlet always have crazy sale, now all the outlets are on up to 70% off. i'm always so looking to this sale period. worth buying - at least for me. its the only formal/semi-formal wear that fits me well.

the time today just passed by so so fast. i went out - where? - library plus maybe a little bit of visit in IMM and jurong point (coz of g2000 - sizes are just so hard to find). i was out for 2 hours i guess and 45 mins, i was in the library trying to find useful and precise books that can help me with my projects - quite unsuccessful.

i want to do project but somehow the pressure isn't so in the air yet - but i have to do... so i won't be like a mad person next weekend! so maybe i'll start a little. i'll try my very best to start - how to - i have no idea.

i just agreed into something i think i shouldn't have. god! i'm so gonna be dead if i fail into this thing. what if i'm not the one that supposed to be there? that possibility never leaves my mind, well if that's the case, it's totally fine. haha. at least i have no need to worry about what if i can't talk, what if i couldn't think of an appropiate answer, what if whatever i'm saying is perfectly irrelevant to the matter that supposed to be address. oh i'm so so dead! but i hope everything would be in place. somehow i'm loving the idea in a way. haha. i need some challenging things in my life sometimes. i'm hungry for it. so probably a taste of triumph or possible HUMILIATION (if i fail) won't be that bad. i'll elaborate it once i've done it - well or not. i'll still surely discuss it - so keep checking on the next few days.

i'm so considering joining the "robotic event" in school in september but again i'm so scared to commit in these kinds of things. i was never an IT person. as in IT inlove person. but i seem to think of myself stupid turning down such an opportunity. please leave some comments and suggest what i should do. i need motivations of whatever decision i'm supposed to do.

2009-07-31T22:30:00.004+08:00

REVELATIONS. today was really a long day for me. thank god. somehow i can say it's more interesting than normal days :) this morning was fine, had instant noodles which i am currently getting addicted now - and i know everyone else in my house would be - i had to hide it so at least i can eat it. then after lunch, school demands our presence, so we were in school. there was a talk by NUS which is not uplifting as they mentioned again something about my impossible request- which sounds like, if you're from an unrelated course, too bad for you, you gotta stay there or get a 4.0 in your poly :) how inspiring. i wasn't really bored, coz i was trying to get possibilities on how my chances can be. still - no chance or the best possibility that there's a tiny chance. enough in the educational part - quite boring right?

after that, we have to wait like 3 hours for the TPIS bbq event, so we killed our time watching a funny series - in a lecture theatre - not a bad idea :) a cheap way of relaxation - in fact free!

TPIS bbq - it was ok, i was happy with the idea that i get to spend the night outside - thank god for that. didn't eat alot - like usual for me in a bbq - where i'm not a host in the party. i rather sit and smell like bbq that join the riot in food and smell like bbq:) weird but it's a good choice ok? i always have this theory in bbq's in sg - "food will come" - and it did - always. well i had some fun at least, hanging with my classmates and friends, eating marshmallows and regular rations of fishballs and nuggets by someone from the group, listening and participating in "STRANGE" comments by some people from the group as well and listening to music and listening and watching at some random stuffs that makes me laugh like crazy. maybe the girl talk with kelly and hui fen, or the STRANGE aura of the night for the guys... here are some proofs...

how sweet...

really sweet... too bad i missed some important ones because of my lousy phone camera... it looks more sweet... simon's feeding ericko:)

there was no alcohol in the party i swear!

but they are just so attached to each other :) oh friendship... omg... and yes they are hugging each other... and yes ericko's in john's lap... haha!!!

we left about 8 plus and reached home 9 plus. keith sent me home, had a really great conversation in the car. interesting, meaningful, and just interesting... which just made me happy. i just feel very happy today:)

2009-07-29T22:13:00.002+08:00

ASTONISHMENTS and HUNTING. quite a number of things surprised me today - lets start with some good news. during ECSA - another subject that i think not for me - our teacher released our assignment 1 marks and i was really really surprised with what i got - A. thank god - i'm quite in a trauma-mode whenever i remember having to sit in the first test - having to define a trojan horse threat in a computer which was beyond my capabilities to explain some related points at least - and at that moment everyone was fussing about it having to be 7% of the whole sem if ecsa. i swear i was about to die in my seat - failing a paper for the first time in my poly life - for a trojan horse! dammit. but after all, i think the paper didn't affect my grades :) thank god!

another astonishing thing - not really astonishing - but quite funny and strange actually - i dreamt about keith drinking on a maroon-somewhat-vase-shape-mug. and he does own the same kind of mug in my dream and he did drank on it. de javu again - happened quite a number of times and it just doesn't fail to surprise me every time - and cheer me up too.

then the worse shock of the day - i have no idea what happened and why it happened. i was sitting outside the lab this afternoon before class - we usually do - normal thing. they were talking about going to a free flow drink on friday after the tpis bbq party. yeah i'm left out again of course - the girl who can't stay out at night - like what my other friends use to say - maybe i turn into a werewolf at night somehow, that's why no matter how much effort they put on convincing me to make a decision for myself that i will at least enjoy - it never worked. then i told them not to make keith drunk - "he NEVER gets drunk" (plus some sarcasm in my tone) - and he replied - "i don't, just get HIGH". okay. haha. then simon slipped out something. i didn't catch it at first, then the words suddenly sank into me. it about a video of keith being high. well i wouldn't really mind it, if and only if keith just didn't react so - different. he did - big mistake. he just somewhat filled more extremely dried wood in the fire building up in my chest. i turned furious. i have no idea what's got into me but it was - it really was something i was extremely bothered about. - it was nonsense but i WAS bothered. very. i turned to simon. "YOU BETTER SHOW ME THAT VIDEO." (yes i was loud). then keith said something that made it more and MORE curious for me - sounded like - something about simon's not-supposed-to-mention-it-forever kynda thing. that was making things more and MORE ridiculous. they just filled the fire with GAS! i am so in the need to see that freaking video - if it was really nothing - what's with all the fuss - THEIR fuss?! if it was nothing then fine - just show me - nothing to be worried about. i quoted "I HAD NEVER BEEN SO CURIOUS IN MY LIFE!"...

but... i lost. no video. i swear i'm so so so irritated - but i can't argue. i'm just lazy to argue. it won't change anything anyways. i'm just gonna waste my time. and i was studying for the 6% ecsas test. what could be more important than trying to pass a test in that crucial moment when i'm expecting a C in my first assignment. i'm always paranoid in exams - dammit - so i lose. and i don't think bringing it up again will make any change so - forget it. i'm good at it. why do you think i survived for 19 years in my life?! i'm skilled in terms of ignoring irritations :) i can promise never to bring it UP again but i NEVER forget :) another skill :)

some of the "boys" - haha - were planning a ghost hunting experience. in singapore. in school. one of the teacher's mentioned the labs were haunted. haha. a good one. and they all bought it. well ok, its part of school life. i was once in a school "full of ghosts" and spirits and all those sorts. haunted. once a cemetery then a hospital. it was my life for 10 long years - unfortunately - they never liked me - and never showed up. its not like "oh-i'm-so-brave". it just that i'm the only one left in my school that doesn't have any interesting story about the scary experience. again - the left out one. how sad. i swear i WILL get scared when i see one, probably more - i might faint (want to experience faiting once too - never happened to me) , or cry, or become hysteric for a week - but it never happened. i tried to walk around that school in the middle of the night last time probably 11pm-1am - it was a camp - i was an officer in the making - patrolling the school - a part of priveleges of course - and there was nothing. even ghosts know my life have to remain untouched and monotonous i suppose lol. oh well.

2009-07-28T23:24:00.004+08:00

SO I THOUGHT IT WAS. i really have not much meaning behind these words. it just kept repeating over and over again in my head today. ericko asked me about it - "so i though it was SUSHI" (well he puts sushi in every status message i put on my msn - some how we shared the same passion for the love of sushi - or probably the craving for sushi almost like all the time - the greediness probably in a more appropriate yet extreme way of thinking). well i answered him, "so i though it was a good day today".

well i think it was. i was not so in tune in the morning though. i was at school at 8:45 am and i have to be there at 10:15 for my presentation. i was really early. i want to prepare for the presentation. apparently i didn't manage to. the "ordeal" last night was still enveloping me. ordeal - yes it was. the horrifying feeling of wanting to sleep but i can't plus my headache just want to split my head into two and it feels frozen that i was wanting to vomit the whole night feels like i was in the bed for a century - more than an ordeal. haha. i tried a cooling cold soya bean milk, it helped for a while but i felt sick with it. then keith suggested a hot milo, and so i did drank one cup. i was better but not for long. when we went upstairs waiting for john's group to finish, i felt queasy, nauseous, feels like its again a terrible moment in the toilet. it was a mixture of the horrible feeling since last night and the milo and the soya bean milk in my stomach plus the usual feeling of uneasy before a class presentation. i rushed to the toiled - and there it happened. i was thankful i didn't eat anything yet in the morning - its somewhat easier to handle that way. just use your imagination. then there it was after the toilet scenario - i was well. very well. the presentation took place then it was over before i could blink my eye. i was back to normal. we had 3 hours break so we decided to go to tampines - our group - kelly, hui fen, keith and i - ended up at tampines one and sushi tei! :) a good day... another surprising thing - it was really somewhat astonishing - we spent $53 and we were 4 people. amazing! i was used to the idea that eating in those kinds of places cost 2 people at least nearly 40 to 50 bucks. somehow its possible to save money at a japanese restaurant. just avoid the greediness and the luring sushi sensation. haha. we stayed at sushi tei for quite a long period of time - chit chatting, relaxing after so much stress and it was really a great help for me. i need a serious amount of relaxtion. it was 1 pm when we decided to go because of the smell of disgusting prawn covering the place. we reached at school almost 1:30 then we chit chat again. after lunch, we went back to school, i saw ericko and presented him a sushi tei wet tissue (unused). haha.

then during BSIT, finally, it was like i had been waiting for the moment to happen all my life - i managed to cope up in the freaking subject. it was programming - at last - the daily basis of my IT life came back. it was like trying to remember alot of things that has been long forgotten and the retrieval of memory part was overwhelming me. i'm crazy yes but having to cope up with BSIT was a serious matter. it is very much. somehow. xml wasn't so bad, it was the only thing i could probably compliment this sem. at least there's something that demands the logical part of my brain.

i just finished my PPT slides for my ENCM. the class was cancelled but i think we have to submit the slides to him online so i just did it. i like the idea of the cancellation. why? because i was so so lazy to iron my shirt - it is very very tiring. why does g2 black label/ g2000 does not have wrinkle free shirt for girls like that for guys! its unfair! the ones i have was a striped blue, a pure white and the a striped balck and white which i was wearing today. the first two take me hours to iron. so i hate it. so tomorrow, since there is no need for the formal wear, i can wear anything! :) convenient. totally!

i'm sleepy. i'll sleep now. and i'll study tomorrow morning for the test in the afternoon so i'll wake up early.

2009-07-27T21:12:00.003+08:00

PAYBACK. today is somewhat a little stress free day. first of all the two projects i am going crazy about for the past week is done and submitted. then, the next round of project submission is still few more days from today. but still no matter how lesser things i have to do today i'm still a mess. my head is killing me.

yesterday, i woke up early, well at least compared to the usual time i wake up on sundays, 8am. i turned on my laptop and start doing my ecsa - report, VIDEO, journal. i was done about 10 pm. but youtube is not being so sympathetic with me. it doesn't accept swf. so i had to find every single converter i could and try and upload the video and see if youtube will accept it. i finished everything 2am.

i woke up 6am. my head was terrible i feel like there's a thick liquid inside it and it flowing in my head making it so heavy. it was terrible and i had to bear it for the whole day. i wasn't near better when school ended. my drowsiness makes me feel like vomitting. so i went to take a bath then threw myself onto the bed. it was 7:25. i tried my best to sleep but i just can't. i stood up 8:14 and it was a huge mistake. my head was worse. it felt like the fluid had frozen. for girls, have u ever experienced your hair having tied in a bun and the hairdresser put a crazy amount of hairspray that you feel like you wouldn't be able to move your head the whole day?! i had, during my highschool graduation - and it feels terrible that at the end of the day i felt like banging my head on the nearest brick wall i could find. i drank water - and eat bread. the pain lessen a bit. so i'm trying to relax now. blogging somehow have that effect on me :)

anyways, i have received my marks for the pseudo-job-hunt. i was really surprised by my interview marks! i'm elated! i didn't expect it! - i got 28 upon 30! as i have described that interview experience few posts ago i described it as a traumatic experience but it paid off very well!

2009-07-23T22:31:00.003+08:00

LUCK. i just experienced something really funny and lucky when i was on my way home. when i was in the train station, i went to a shop to buy nescafe latte, i have coins in my wallet - about 1.25. the latte was 1.30. i have another 10 dollars inside my bag and the laziness grew into my senses and i dun think its worth digging in my bag. i hate digging inside my freaking bag, theres just too much inside and i will take ages to find what i want to find. so i was kind of deciding to put back my latte, though i already put 1.20 in the cashier's table, suddenly, while digging in to my purse hoping for antoher 5 cents to appear, i dropped a coin. it went inside the plastic containing some prawn crackers in front of the cashier. i'm so going to put back that freaking latte. and then the sales person noticed and then she pulled out the plastic... i was astonished to see 2 10 cents and 1 5 cents, i was sure that moment that i dropped my 5 cents, only my 5 cents, but before i was about to say it, the lady said "oh which one is your coin?". what should i do? think think. i'm going to lie... but its fine... 5 cents wouldn't hurt... but... oh why do i have such a conscience that its so hard to do it... then she spoke continuously and said "oh can help me put back the plastic?" - she's not bothered... she's a china woman... while putting the latte in a plastic bag... then she handed it to me :) i guess she thought i dropped one of the 10 cents coin :) thank god i can enjoy my latte! i don't know but i really tend to be 5 cents shorter whenever i want to buy something at the train station!

2009-07-22T10:49:00.002+08:00

BARRIER. one of the things that i hated the most now is being left out. i hate being left out and believe it or not somehow i've been feeling that for quite a while. its a little stupid honestly, because i think its beyond my explanation capabilities (as usual) that i cannot explain it and i can also say i really don't know why i feel this way (maybe i'm just losing my sanity) - and i'm not discussing it with anyone! i think i'm becoming a little too emotional in a way. this isn't really a good sign - its so not me. i don't really care most of the time before, but now i do. and i'm not happy with it. oh i think i developed an ability of being a brat because i feel like i'm wanting more attention now. or there's a possibility that maybe i'm feeling this way because i just can't do much in my life - my life is boring and i have said it a million times and will keep saying it because it still haven't changed. i swear i really need more excitement in my life. more more more and more. i've been praying for it every single day and until now everything just seems to be normal - boring.

its just 11am and i'm already hoping that the day would end soon but it seems like its taking forever.

i need to do my enteprise commerce essay and its just one of the most boring thing to do in the world right now. what would an essay help to the economic crisis that's currently happening in this world?!

2009-07-20T18:57:00.004+08:00

COFFEE BREAK. i am currently resisting the urge of buying a frappuccino from cafe galilee. i don't know why but i'm just too addicted with it. the sweet taste of the coffee, the slight roughness of the crushed ice slithering on your tongue and of course the smooth and soft feeling from the whipped cream... damn that's really stupid.

i think that this is because of my body's demand for more caffeine because of the increasing demand of pressure of today and tomorrow. i had my interview today - pseudo-interview for an internship and i was nervous like mad. i was stumbling in my few minutes but managed to get back into my usual self after a while. but i swear, having to stand outside the room - (i was there about an hour before my turn) having to wait for my turn - seems to be the most excruciating and traumatic moment in my life. i was so scared. i don't know why but i think that this was something if i fail to do i failed to live my life in tp. it was, probably the least thing i wanted the moment i stepped in tp. the moment in my first few days people were chatting about cmsk in year 2 was agonising. but but but... i made it! it wasn't so bad, in fact the interviewers' comments really pleased me:) they said yeah i was nervous (i know - like totally!), all my answers were relevant (my heart jumped!), and i was honest (oh yeah! ok? fine but yea i was asked about blogging and i do love blogging - u think so???).

the bad thing was their comment about my face having to be so colorless. for heaven's sake, i put like a glorious amount of blush on and lipstick. unfortunately, while i was outside the room, my body was overheating, my face was turning red and they said that i put too much make up, i was sooo red... so i kynda wiped it. because i'm scared what if they say when i get in, i did put too much make up. my lipstick - oh its a usual thing. it tends to be out of lips in about 5 seconds. i dunno why. no matter how think i put it just disappears. maybe i kynda like biting my lips when i wear lipstick unaware of it. oh well.

tomorrow will be BSIT presentation and i think i'm the most clueless person about rosettaNet - so help me GOD! i need some angels to whisper to me whats the essence of rosettaNet in business integration. hais. i feel i'll be terrible. plus, i think that with my teacher, charms wouldn't work much this time. too bad. my only hope. haha! this feels so like dcnk. and i sucked at it. u have to read my old posts to relate to this sucking-in-dcnk topic.

oh i'm really hungry. i'm still in the library and totally lazy to go home. i just want to stay here actually. its quite relaxing. people trying to be quiet (though not working so well - but still fine) the sound of the water from the small fountain and the smell of the coffee from cafe galilee! plus of course the internet and the chance of not pretending that i'm glad to be home. but i have no choice (what's new) i gotta go home, so i better leave now. that's all for now:)

2009-07-18T19:25:00.003+08:00

5th VS 6th. i just watched the 5th movie of harry potter again today and i've jsut realised quite a number of things. the 5th movie was really nice... so why did i think that the 6th movie was nice?! well, basically the 5th movie has more effects, more impressive scenes but failed to adapt the story in the book significantly, this is were the 6th book excelled. the 6th book actually adapted the book better so i though it was better. so it all comes down to the expectations part. i've expected alot on the 5th movie but it failed to show alot more significant things on the book, i expected lesser (than how i did on the 5th )on the 6th movie so it looked better.

2009-07-16T21:30:00.006+08:00

POST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. two days ago was my 19th birthday - if anyone didn't hear. haha. really very few people knew about it i guess. but i was really happy that quite a few people greeted me unexpectedly. Thanks to KATHY (alot! she never fails to remember it.), DARSHAN (my most loyal friend i can say! never ever fails to give me a present with a touch of harry potter! he gave me a handmade harry potter crest.), CINDY (greeted me before i reached school! really touching! my only present classmate who greeted me in sms too.), ERICKO (with a shake hands! really polite no one had ever done it to me) YNA (she greeted my 3 times. i'm really touched), ATE FAYE (though she greeted me on the 15th, i was really touched she remembered even we haven't met for more than 3 years), ELEINE (left me an offline message and greeted me via facebook wall - really really touched, coz same as the reason as ate faye's we haven't met for 3 years). SIMON and CHIN SENG, greeted me on my way home), MY SIS (greeted me when my eyes are still closed and i was on the bed) and of course, KEITH (who is the very first person who greeted me personally on the day itself and i am already conscious:)!)

so why am i actually talking about all these today - only today - coz now my mood had lifted to a very high level. why because i just had my birthday expectations fulfilled.:) on my b-day itself, i wasn't so happy because my mum asked to go home early because of some lousy reason. so i was pissed that i can't have my sushi celebration. so the mood was totally bad. without keith my b-day would have probably been terrible, he's really been beside me the ENTIRE day.

today was different though, (i woke up 7:15 and almost got late from school. haha.) like what my post title "POST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION". i have posted few days back that keith already booked the ticket for harry potter and.... we watched HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE today!!! (@ GV Grand @ Great World!) +++ i also had my SUSHI WISH!!! (@ Ichiban Boshi) we had carpaccio, gyoza, and some other that i can't seem to remember the names, and of course lots and lots of sushi! i loved it! we watched the movie after we ate so i was really full, so even i really liked the cauldron with popcorn and the wizard tumbler which is sold in gv for $12, i didn't buy it. hehe. but i think it was a good decision - i didn't have the need to go to the toilet in the middle of the movie and i'm really hoping not to!

the movie was good (better than the 5th one) but not really spectacular. but i liked it somehow. its quite enjoyable in a way coz of the somewhat funny parts. but i'm quite a little disappointed that the last part was so short. they didn't show any fighting scenes which has supposed to happen in the last part, and why in the world harry wasn't body binded in the astronomy tower, i think its such an important thing as it is the only thing that makes harry don't look dumb and useless - coz he has no choice, coz he cannot move - but he was moving there so people who watched the movie and didn't read the book will think that harry was in fact useless and dumb and weak. how sad. i really liked the appearance of bellatrix - though she's not supposed to be there - and its against the story in the book - its fine - the movie looks really more exciting with her acting like a mad evil person. i really enjoyed the movie. plus considering the fact that keith was really in a good mood and he was laughing entirely during the movie (i shouldn't have told him dumbledore was gay), makes it more fun. haha. he said that some people were crying when dumbledore died. haha. and the movie intended to make that obvious. there was really total silence in the theatre when he died, its when the scene was showing the great hall, it was really really very weird to expect people to keep quiet in the theatre like that. its as if everyone was moved. (except for keith who was laughing due to crying people) well i didn't cry. lol. after reading the book for 3 times?! how could i?! lol.

it was really a fun day. :P

now that i've watched harry potter and i my mood is already better, i think and i hope i can focus more on my school stuffs now :) i think i was kynda distracted with my mood for the past days. (which tends to happen on my birthday season). well i'm fine now and ready to move forward! cheers for everyone!

don't you think i'm really powered up?! my post is so long!!!

2009-07-14T22:58:00.003+08:00

A BIRTHDAY POST. since i've been blogging almost everyday, i think that i cannot miss the chance of blogging on my birthday:)

there's nothing much to say about today, sadly, but not that bad. keith's with me the whole day :) since 7 am!

i ordered pizza! :)

2009-07-13T21:05:00.003+08:00

PHILOSOPHY IN LIFE. i was stunned hearing these words about a few hours ago. we were having some sort of a dry run job interview, and i was the last one to be asked and i was asked "What is your PHILOSPHY IN LIFE?" i was speechless. for heaven's sake, i don't even have any idea what philosophy in life is!

i'm so so lazy to do my assignment, but i have to! ENCM proposal submission is like less than 48 hours away!!! omg!!! i need some motivation!

anyways, i can't have my sushi wish tomorrow. i have to go home straight after school to avoid a terrible commotion between me and my parents. hais! even tomorrow, they can't even give a bit of chance!

2009-07-13T12:23:00.002+08:00

THE DAILY PROPHET. i successfully changed my blogskin today! now it already have a harry-pottish-aura!

harry potter harry potter harry potter!!! the movie is coming and keith already booked a ticket for us! perfect!!! i've seen the rating of the movie and its 4 out of 5! i hope i won't get disappointed like how the 5th movie did.

on the other hand, as seen from the movie trailer, there are quite some scenes that's totally not in the book. some are really quite weird and quite disappointing but some makes the movie quite a little more exciting in a sense actually.

disappointing ones: the weasley's house getting burned??? in what part of harry potter 6 did it happen?! i think its just to build up the harry-ginny love affair, which is another disappointing part of the movie. they shouldn't put too much of that actually, i find the 6th book the movie that can make people feel revenge as much as harry potter does to voldemort (which adds up the excitement and need for the last book/movie), but with those harry-ginny i think they are trying to hush up the movie, and its irritating! plus greyback appeared??? why??? harry and lupin are just talking about him ok? he only appeared in the hogwarts castle!

somethings i like: bellatrix in the hogwarts battle in the 6th book, she's not supposed to be there but i love her character, she is so evil and i really find it really really impressive that the way she portray bellatrix just seems to be so perfect! i want her to appear more!!!

all the reviews that i typed are solely from the trailers only ok?!

2009-07-12T19:00:00.002+08:00

SOMETIMES YOU GOTTA ACT LIKE YOU DON'T CARE. this statement just hit me like crazy today. about 5 minutes ago, i saw it as paula alyssa's status message, so i decided to make it as today's blog title, then something weird had happened, when i opened cindy's blog, there was a narration at the start of the song and ITS EXACTLY THE SAME LINE! creepy! the world seems to be telling me that this is a good way to live life and this is what i have to do!

its just such a perfect statement today, because unfortunately, there are really some circumstances that i am the last one to know (lets say maybe not the last, but never the first) about all the reasons about everything that's happening, but i guess sometimes, i just really gotta act like i don't care. probably everything's better of that way - though for a person like me, it kynda hurt of course. -.-'

i was kind of impressed yesterday with myself that i actually accomplished everything that i have to be done for cmsk and ecsa. now i actually see the advantage of not working! it DOES make a difference. come to think of it, i managed to watch the anime, ericko recommended to keith, it was really cute. and i managed to watch 2 whole movies straight today! i'm planning to start my bsit assignment and encm but i feel like not starting it without totally finishing all about ecsa! i'm still waiting for hui fen's UNAUTHORISED access slides haha! i've compiled everything this morning, hui fen actually sent her stuffs first but i asked her to do some modification. so we're done!

i'm planning to change my blogskin. should i?

2009-07-09T12:30:00.002+08:00

SO WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?!

KINDERGARTEN TEACHER: To get to the other side.

PLATO: For the greater good.

ARISTOTLE: It is the nature of chickens to cross roads.

KARL MARX: It was a historical inevitability.

TIMOTHY LEARY: Because that's the only trip the establishment would let it take.

SADDAM HUSSEIN: This was an unprovoked act of rebellion and we were justified in dropping 50 tons of nerve gas on it.

JACK NICHOLSON: 'cause it f___ing wanted to. That's the f___ing reason.

RONALD REAGAN: I forget.

CAPTAIN JAMES T. KIRK: To boldly go where no chicken has gone before.

HIPPOCRATES: Because of an excess of phlegm in its pancreas.

ANDERSEN CONSULTANT: Deregulation of the chicken's side of the road was threatening its dominant market position. The chicken was faced with significant challenges to create and develop the competencies required for the newly competitive market. Andersen Consulting, in a partnering relationship with the client, helped the chicken by rethinking its physical distribution strategy and implementation processes. Using the Poultry Integration Model (PIM), Andersen helped the chicken use its skills, methodologies, knowledge, capital and experiences to align the chicken's people, processes and technology in support of its overall strategy within a Program Management framework. Andersen Consulting convened a diverse cross-spectrum of road analysts and best chickens along with Anderson consultants with deep skills in the transportation industry to engage in a two-day itinerary of meetings in order to leverage their personal knowledge capital, both tacit and explicit, and to enable them to synergize with each other in order to achieve the implicit goals of delivering and successfully architecting and implementing an enterprise-wide value framework across the continuum of poultry cross-median processes. The meeting was held in a park-like setting, enabling and creating an impactful environment which was strategically based, industry-focused, and built upon a consistent, clear, and unified market message and aligned with the chicken's mission, vision, and core values. This was conducive towards the creation of a total business integration solution. Andersen Consulting helped the chicken change to become more successful.

LOUIS FARRAKHAN: The road, you see, represents the black man. The chicken 'crossed' the black man in order to trample him and keep him down.

MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.: I envision a world where all chickens will be free to cross roads without having their motives being called into question.

MOSES: And God came down from the Heavens, and He said unto the chicken, "Thou shalt cross the road." And the chicken crossed the road, and there was much rejoicing.

FOX MULDER: You saw it cross the road with your own eyes. How many more chickens have to cross the road before you believe it?

RICHARD M. NIXON: The chicken did not cross the road. I repeat, the chicken did NOT cross the road.

MACHIAVELLI: The point is that the chicken crossed the road. Who cares why? The end of crossing the road justifies whatever motive there was.

JERRY SEINFELD: Why does anyone cross a road? I mean, why doesn't anyone ever think to ask, What the heck was this chicken doing walking around all over the place, anyway?"

FREUD: The fact that you are at all concerned that the chicken crossed the road reveals your underlying sexual insecurity.

BILL GATES: I have just released the new Chicken Office 2000, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook.

BILL CLINTON: I'm going to say something important. And I'll say it again to make sure you understand. I did not have sexual relations with that chicken. I did not.

GEORGE W. BUSH (2): We don't really care why the chicken crossed the road. We just want to know if the chicken is on our side of the road or not. The chicken is either with us or it is against us. There is no middle ground here.

OLIVER STONE: The question is not, "Why did the chicken cross the road?" Rather, it is, "Who was crossing the road at the same time, whom we overlooked in our haste to observe the chicken crossing?"

DARWIN: Chickens, over great periods of time, have been naturally selected in such a way that they are now genetically disposed to cross roads.

EINSTEIN: Whether the chicken crossed the road or the road moved beneath the chicken depends upon your frame of reference.

BUDDHA: Asking this question denies your own chicken nature.

RALPH WALDO EMERSON: The chicken did not cross the road… it transcended it.

ERNEST HEMINGWAY: To die. In the rain.

NEW SOUTH AFRICAN POLITICIAN: It is the Apartheid regime which made the chicken cross the road when the chicken did not want to cross the road, the chicken is oppressed and the only way to free the chicken is for the whites to pay restitution for oppressing the chicken and investigate police involvement in the death of chickens. It is racist to imply that chickens are involved in any crimes and corruption.

OLD SOUTH AFRICAN POLITICIAN: It is our belief that chickens should be allowed to cross roads in their own areas with their own roads. If they wish to cross roads in other areas they must carry a pass and will be subject to arrest if they dont. We would like to state categorically that meddling in our affairs by any persons will not be tolerated and we will arrest and detain anybody for a period of 90 days without trail so that these allegations can be investigated.

COSATU: To steal a job from a decent, hardworking, South African.

RAY MACAULEY: Because the chicken was gay! Isn't it obvious? Can't you people see the plain truth in front of your face? The chicken was going to the "other side." That's what "they" call it, "the other side." Yes, my friends, that chicken is gay. And, if you eat that chicken, you will become gay too. I say we boycott all chickens until we sort out this abomination that the liberal media whitewashes with seemingly harmless phrases like "the other side." That chicken should not be free to cross the road. It's as plain and simple as that.

DR SEUSS: Did the chicken cross the road? Did he cross it with a toad? Yes! The chicken crossed the road, but why it crossed, I've not been told!

DR NELSON MANDELA: Never again, will the chicken be questioned for crossing the road. This is an ideal for which I am prepared to die.

GRANDPA SIMPSON: In my day, we didn't ask why the chicken crossed the road. Someone told us that the chicken crossed the road, and that was good enough for us.

BISHOP TUTU: We need a society where people will learn to forgive all the chickens that crossed the road. However, forgiveness will be granted to chickens that convince the nation that their reasons for crossing the road were politically motivated

PAN AFRICAN CONGRESS: The road, you will see, represents the black man. The chicken crossed the "black man" in order to trample him and keep him down.

ROBERT MUGABE: For all of these years the road has been owned by the white farmers, the poor underpriveleged chicken has waited too long for that road to be given to him and now he is crossing it in force with his fellow war veteran chickens. We intend taking over this road and giving it to the roadless chickens so that they can cross it without fear of retribution from Britain who promised money to institute road reform. We will not stop until all roadless chickens have roads to cross and the freedom to cross them. We will also return to the Socialist ideal of a road so that all chickens who live in our country can benefit from the grand ideals which I have decided upon.

ISAAC NEWTON: Any chicken in the universe shall always cross a road perpendicularly to the side of the road, and in an infinitely long straight line at uniform speed, unless the chicken stops due to an unbalanced reactive force in the opposite direction of the chicken's motion

HEISENBERG: No one will ever know for sure whether he actually got to the other side

SNOOPY: It was a dark, stormy night. Somewhere in the rain, a chicken crossed a road

JULIE ANDREWS: Chick, a cheer, a female cheer ...

MOHAMMED ALDOURI (Iraq Ambassador): The chicken did not cross the road. This is a complete fabrication. We don't even have a chicken.

COLONEL SANDERS: I missed one?

http://sg.answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AlISnm6S2aUDzE3p85IwBE8h4wt.;_ylv=3?qid=20080811134523AABK3U7

2009-07-08T15:00:00.003+08:00

THEY JUST DON'T SHUT UP. somehow alot of people has this ability to talk for hours without knowing that no one's listening to them and that they totally doesn't make sense at all. which in fact, proves another of their ability, which is to annoy people, make them terribly bored and put them on the verge of probably stabbing someone because of extreme excruciating boredom - and i'm nearing there.

blogging is my only hope to entertain my self - at least in a way, coz unfortunately, and it was really unexpected, i am so sick of facebook!

before i proceed, wanna share some pictures first. PIZZA de FRANCE! nice. thin crust (no-so-thin really but quite), and cheap :)

lets proceed. for my 19 years in this world, i taught not to interrupt when someone is talking and for my 13 years of schooling, i was taught to respect my teachers, most specially when they are talking - avoid interruption as much as possible.

today, i was rather disappointed as this thing had happened to me. i was presenting in class and my teacher started talking endlessly at the middle of my presentation. it was really really REALLY RUDE! specially for a teacher - i was under the impression that they are the ones who's supposed to be teaching and exercising good manners such as not interrupting someone.

2009-07-04T19:33:00.002+08:00

PSEUDO JOB HUNT. because of CMSK i am now doing a pseudo job hunt - for internship - and i'm not going anywhere. its so irritating. hais.

2009-07-01T22:55:00.002+08:00

SPEECHLESS. i can't blog much because i have too much to say and i don't know how to start. :) it wasn't a good day for me.

2009-06-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

Kung Akin Ang Mundo

by Erik Santos

Kung ako ang may-ari ng mundo

Ibibigay lahat ng gusto mo

Araw-araw pasisikatin ang araw

Buwan-buwan pabibilugin ko ang buwan

Para sa’yo, para sa’yo

Chorus:

Susungkitin mga bituin, para lang makahiling

Na sana’y maging akin, puso mo at damdamin

Kung pwede lang, kung kaya lang

Kung akin ang mundo, ang lahat ng ito’y iaalay ko sa’yo

Kung ako ang hari ng puso

Lagi kitang pababantay kay kupido

Hindi na luluha ang ‘yong mga mata

Mananatiling may ngiti sa ‘yong labi

Para sa’yo, para sa’yo

2009-06-30T23:12:00.002+08:00

EXHAUSTED AND SICK. today was really an exhausting day. aside from the fact that the first day of school (that was yesterday) was really really stressful because of the huge amount of stuffs to be handed in, in the next two weeks in just 2 subjects, another 2 subjects are then introduced to use today - and it was as horrible as the first two :(

i'm so in no good terms in this term. it shows to be rather challeging than how i expected it to be :( it was a good decision i stopped working.

another thing that made this day very exhausting is that the fact the keith didn't talk to me for like 4 hours i guess. i am crazy, but i really really find it too exhausting. its like trying to control your breathing in 4 hours. control it, slowing it down to keep yourself quiet its rather dramatic but i hate it when it happens - scary lol!

anyways, i felt sick after lunch, (maybe due to the above mentioned reason as well lol and) the chicken chop! after lunch i instantly emptied my tummy by means of vomitting it all out. eeew disgusting! lol but it happened. lol! i think i ate too much, then walked so far then i was pretending to act normal then i climb the stairs. it was a horrible feeling.

i feel like sleeping, i'm just waiting for my nail polish to dry. and watching "the wedding" in tfc lol!

2009-06-28T19:43:00.002+08:00

DRESSCODE. beware: this post will be about complains again, you don't have to read it if you think i have too much complains in life.

first of all. i will talk about the title of my post. basically, i just found out that the dress code by my father still exist. he said that the shorts i was wearing were "too" short. it was rather irritating. come to think of it, i don't wear hot pants! see how old fashioned my parents are. another thing, he also said that the clothes that i am wearing were tight. tight?! omg i wear t-shirts! sometimes polo shirts. sometimes i really think that he's just making fuss about this things just for the sake of irritating me, and for the sake of scolding someone because he alreasy given up with my stupid sister.

now, another complain: I STILL HAVEN'T GOT MY PAY for the month of APRIL and MAY!!! its freaking delayed!

anyways, i have come up with my decision of stop working next month. aside from the fact that i have 4 subjects to focus onto, its also my birthday month.

about that...

my only birthday wish: FREEDOM!

anyways, i have been receiving missed calls for quite a number of times already from a private number and i have no idea where and to whom it is coming from! freaky!

2009-06-26T11:24:00.002+08:00

HEAL THE WORLD. what a news when i opened yahoo. michael jackson - dead. well i know that he has been in such huge terrible issues for the past few years but his legendary songs really move and inspire alot of people. :) i love his SONGS and his voice. haha - not him and his trying to be perfect image. :) so i really think he is a terrible loss to the music industry.

2009-06-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

TRANSFORMERS. everyone's going crazy about it! people kept talking about it (like everywhere) people posting "TRANSFORMERS" as their status message in facebook and most of the seasonal sales in the mall has transformers items (for kids lol) - so i really think i couldn't miss this movie in the theatre and of course blog about it. so i watched it today with my classmates - keith, daphne, john, hafiz, zamir, shi bin, li zhu and ericko (who is so caught up in the movie! that there's a scene i got shocked for no reason because of him! and he is the most excited person i've ever seen watching a movie! haha!) i'm not an avid fan though, i haven't even watched the first movie since yesterday. lol. the movie is worth watching in the theatre though. really cool. thank god i watched the first movie yesterday, if i didn't i probably will be so clueless about what transformers are - all my life i've known them as cars turning into robots ONLY- no more no less! but its really cool how the freaking robots transform! of course, keith is expecting more of the movie, and said the first one was nicer... but i like this new one more... more robots, more transformations, cooler! :)

2009-06-19T11:10:00.001+08:00

FOOD FOOD AND MORE FOOD.

a latte :)

a chocolate chip cheesecake :)

an okonomiyaki :)

an apple juice :)

a beer :)

2009-06-19T11:08:00.000+08:00

MOUSE. my dumb brother and sister spoiled my mouse. hais!

2009-06-17T01:22:00.002+08:00

UNDESTINED. some things are just not meant to happen. we can't control anything in this world. in fact quite alot of disappointments had been an effect of this in my life. oh, not quite alot. - really alot! somehow most of the greatest thing i could have considered of falling into its proper places. how disappointing life is. but i'm quite pleased with myself. even this disappointments always slaps into my face, i have actually tried to accept them immediately. its inevitable not to feel it, yes, but i can make it wear off in just a matter of time :) i had lots of practice, i must say!

anyways i'm not even sure if "undestined" is a word. i don't think it is - but some parts of the internet somewhat use it as a word. so i used it. the meaning is quite clear on what i'm tryin to say here right?

2009-06-16T00:14:00.002+08:00

NIGHT@HOME. its really been a long time since i spent the night at home just chillin. watching tv. blogging. sitting on the sofa for hours. coz usually, if i'm not at work ill be just in my room spending all my time in front of my laptop - no internet connection so its just movies or offline games. and now i actually feel bored. and again thinkin of how much sorry i should feel for myself coz my life is being taken over by my father. :( im just stupid choosing not to do anything about it - due to the fact that it is pointless having a conversation with my dad and blah blah blah. - so just don't get sick of me complaining. - this is my only defense mechanism to stay sane in this imprisoned life :)

honestly now i'm thinkin. what if that people that i most care about just suddenly give up on me and think that i'm the most boring person in the world then leave me. :( well for a person who can't even go out and have fun with friends - or most probably acquaintances as i don't hang out with most of them - i do have a boring life. so i can't help being scared.

2009-06-07T15:50:00.002+08:00

UNFORTUNATE. i feel like typing alot today, but realised that i'll probably just talk about how terribly miserable my life is. enumerating the things i cannot do and telling everyone that i can't do anything about it. my fault.

2009-06-07T01:22:00.003+08:00

MOVIE AND SUSHI. thursday, keith and i went to watch terminator. haha. the movie was really nice! unfortunately. my brainpower does not work on thiese kinds of movies. so i really didn't understand bits of it. lol. that i needed keith to explain it to me. the movie was really thrilling and enjoyable. believe it or not, the sounds makes me feel scared in some of the scenes. we were watching at lido - the one with the biggest cinema - which is the best of course - and i can feel my chair vibrating whenever theres some extreme sound effects. haha, it scared me!

then yesterday, friday, we had sushi buffet! :) sakae sushi of course. i was with keith - of course, ericko, zamir and shibin. god i ate a h*ll lot of sushi! i thought i'll get sick of it... then today, before work, i ate 2 onigiris! love it! love it! love it!

anyways i have a new JD uniform. the last one was better! way better. i can't say much about the uniform now. hais.

i gotta go rest.

2009-05-26T18:19:00.002+08:00

ZERO UPDATES. after the unexpected thing that happened few days back, nothing had happened unusual again. i'm so into all my projects now and i just find time to blog now.

sitting in the library, trying to relax a bit, at lease... but reading a book about programming... :)

i think my programming ability is declining a bit... hehehe... its wearing off together with some of my determination... i don't want this to happen of course... but i feel like i've been tryin to do my best actually...

(it so cold here... i'll probably go off soon...)

i just lost 10 dollars this afternoon! damn it! hais... i was at business park... in the queue of the western food stall and when i got my pasta and went out of the line - its gone!

amazing how people nowadays are... come to think of it... i came back after walking about 5 steps to get a fork... its quite impossible that in that huge amount of people in the queue "no one" actually saw a $10 dropping.

yes a huge part of it is my carelessness, but if i dropped it, wouldn't a "kind/normal" person probably at least call me and tell me i dropped my money... i think can't expect that kind of thing in my school! oh well... maybe its too much to expect... hais... anyways... unfortunately for me... when i do see a person drops her money, in front of me... i do return it :) sound kinda hypocrite but.. yeah i do return it...

i'm not that"evil"... haha...

anyways, that's how i was addressed by the person who hates me... a big word... i guess she's an angel... wonder when can i see her wings...

gonna go off now.... i'm freezing here!

2009-05-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

SOMETHING NEW. something really really new had happened to me today! i just discovered that someone in my school HATES me! lets put it in a more detailed way of story telling...

after having lunch and we raced to the class for SWEN at 2pm this afternoon, Hui Fen went to the toilet... when she came back she has this somewhat astonished-anxious looking face and told me that my name was in one of the toilet's cubicle door! Kelly went to the conversation and said that before lunch it wasn't there at all... so the scene happened between 1-2pm... after few minutes, Cindy went to the toilet and when she came back, she has the same astonished/anxious looking face as Hui Fen, and then i said, yeah i know, Hui Fen told me...

Keith came to scene and said, "who's the bitch?"...haha!

well, from the moment that i have assesed the whole situation, i just wanted to laugh at it... i really think its just too hilarious, that SOMEONE from a POLYTECHNIC, where most of the people are in the RIGHT AGE, more precisely addressed as ADULTS... could do something extremely CHILDISH! i pity HER...

i really have no idea who did it and i really can;t throw accusations to anyone because i really don't suspect anyone... i'm quite clueless... CLUELESS as in to the MAX! first of all, i cannot remember doing something that can make someone hate me from my current school, second of all, for my entire life, i have never EVER seen my name behind a toilet's door - take note that i am from CANOSSA ACADEMY and everyone knows that the cubicles' door in every toilet in that school is packed with words!

though i really have not suspected anyone, i would like to acknowledge the fact that the person responsible for this very CHILDISH act, in fact, knows perfectly how to spell my NAME :)

and don't worry, i would not take any advice to bring something for defense against YOU because i really think i should not acknowledge your perfect CHILDISHNESS :)

but thanks the advices and concerns from everyone in the class just now! as long as i know i have loyal friends and i have keith, i don't think i have the need to bother about the childish toilet girl haha!

people might ask, if this isn't a big deal, why am i blogging about it?!

well! for a very very very VERY long time, something different had happened to my life!

and i really do hate backstabbers, who will love these kinds of people!

but in my LIST of who to hate? BACKSTABBERS are #1.

oh i love this post! i just wrote so much words in so little time! good night everyone!

2009-05-06T10:00:00.004+08:00

SWINE FLU/H1N1/ZOMBIE FLU/H1Z1

http://bouncewith.me.uk/europe/8027043.htm

that link was the one article from somewhere saying "There has been a small outbreak of “zombism” in London due to mutation of the H1N1 virus into new strain: H1Z1."

it doesn't sound real though... having a BBC screen in a bouncewith.me.uk? smart. and i don't really think that BBC wants comments from people. like blogs have.

2009-05-05T23:23:00.002+08:00

BLOG BLOG. its been ages since the last time i wrote here. totally no mood i guess. and there's just so much things to do with so little time! school is becoming more and more complicated but i have to admit its getting more fun at least.

i have so much things to say but i can't really remember the stuffs i want to discuss in my blog. ill try to enumerate some of them.

1. "swine flu" or H1N1 virus and the weather condition changes nowadays just does not match. they both made people sick!

2. singapore is not so safe. our new mountain bike just got stolen outside shopwise in jurong east!

3. sakae sushi's blue plate is just $1!

4. i just missed the best black formal shoe from charles and keith! dammit!

5. i bought new bags and a pouch from BONIA! wee!

6. SWEN presentation. i've never been so nervous in my entire life!

7. i'm getting tired of my work!

and alot more i can't remember.

next time i'll try to remember them.

2009-04-18T19:53:00.002+08:00

NEW SEM. a new sem is coming up! starting on monday i'll be the busy school girl again. my timetable's not so bad. main complain: all classes starts at 9am! have to get used to waking up at 6am! then of course the 7am to 7pm out-of-the-house routine. i feel like being back to secondary school!

changes so far. my hair is short. after a very very long time - short hair is back. i'm ok with it though quite shocked during the first few minutes seeing my new hair style.

i hope i can cope well even i will try to work and study at the same time - again. money is needed most of the time - so have to be a little more hardworking!

last few words. coz i am - of course - lazy to blog again.

i feel like a lot of things are going crazy nowadays!

2009-03-30T18:27:00.002+08:00

ONIGIRI. yesterday at work i had 4 onigiris. crazy amount of rice but i think working does starve me.

supposed to be finishing work tomorrow but i guess my holidays are destined to be filled... jd's promotion will end on july and i think i'll take the oportunity to work - even on weekends. :)

anyways after eating lots of sushi again - today... i think i had enough of japanese food... i think i won't be eating onigiri for a week lol :)

2009-03-28T10:45:00.002+08:00

REASONS. i know i suck at reasoning, generally speaking - explaining but i do try my best to make it as clear as possible to anyone i am explaining something to. i just hope they see that part.

i felt terribly sick yesterday. i slept about 3 am +. reason: i can't sleep. saw some articles from yahoo that might be the reason - too much caffeine:) i can't help it milk tea and coffee is my life. but the cost is - i had more than 6 hours of terrible headache and i was at work so i have to look at least as much as approachable as i could so i have to smile behind that killing headache of course and talk as cheerful as possible.

i got pissed to one customer - looking for a free gift for purchasing some 2 for $58 items. come to think of it each cost 37 and he wants freaking freebies! too abusive! oh well i think i made a record of saying the word 'NO' at that point in time... i said it more than 15 times i guess and then i lead him to the counter and walked away and so as the manager haha! (i'm doing sales)

tonight, i'll be working 3-11, i said yes coz last weekend i took a leave:) and i had to ask gazillions of favour from my colleagues. now i'm working afternoon shift and i'm alone. so like i have a choice?! lol. but its fine... i slept about 12 am last night and i think its way better than the other day:)

i better get going, have to prepare for work soon!

2009-03-19T15:33:00.002+08:00

A DAY OFF. after 13 days i finally spent my whole day at home! happy of course... coz i can relax but bored... i already watched 2 movies... and now i am lookning for something to watch again... while eating the chilli cuttlefish... i don't eat spicy stuffs but i like this one... i just have to have a glass of water beside me... (i dunno why i'm so weak with spicy stuffs! hais!)

i watched twilight and wild child. twilight wasn't that bad well if u watch the non-yahoo movies version. i think if the movie was more fancy it will suck more. lol. the part that i think suck the most is not how they try to squeeze the whole book in the movie - but the make up! its too obvious they're not normal haha. wild child's a predictable young teen's movie but not bad.

unother update in my life. i finished reading breaking dawn yesterday. finally finish with the four books. its good but i still say harry potter's better... some parts of the book really bores me like crazy but i just kept reading. i have to finish something i started or i just wasted all the efforts i've done before lol - though i'm listening to audio books most of the times :)

WARNING: might contain some spoilers for breaking dawn:) stop reading if you think u hate spoilers lol:)

so bella becomes a vampire then had a child with edward named renesmee who's halm human half vampire and was imprinted by jacob. then the volturi tried to destroy this little girl and found out there's no reason for it as she grows and will reach the proper qualified "age" for vampire in about 7 years and thus no threats keeping her. i totally hate that last part!!!

the series isn't finished yet right??? if it is... the ending sucks like crazy!

yeah bella has a wonderful power but its useless coz they finished the book... oh please i hope there'll be a book with a chapter name "THE FINAL BATTLE" and all the biting and ripping will occur in this chapter and i will be contented with the story:)

i got nothing much to say about... just one last thing... thanks for the people who reads my blog and finds it interesting :) thank you thank you! i'm really happy sharing my thoughts in blogging:) cheers!

2009-03-12T00:58:00.003+08:00

ANXIOUS. oh why am i too anxious about everything! i hate it! i can't help it. if only there's a way for me to stop being like this!

i just had my exam results today. i've been expecting it since early this morning... i know it'll come around 1pm but today i received it about 2:30 pm when i was on my way to work - i was extremely restless and - disappointed :(

i had a chance to evaluate my results meaningfully as some of my coworkers study in tp as well. we were of course preoccupied by our results - i remain disappointed the whole day - i have no distinction - its explains all my disappointments.

i can't wait to know my gpa of course... but i was at work... working till 11... so i asked keith to check for me... when i got my gpa... the anxiety reached to 92%... i must save the 8% to remain sane at least... it went down...:(

when could i stop telling myself i could have done better...

its not that my results are bad or something... its just that of course... being 'lizette' is not easy.... there's too much expectations from the people around me and i have more expectations from myself!!! - i hate that part really.

and i have this feeling that i want to go back to my workplace... lol talking to those other promoters helps me realise that i have done well at least... i feel relieved in a way... coz its like how many people in this world could actually sympatize with you in this sorts of things.... and for me... when we talk about exam results its like the world being lighten up to me... it is really a big deal to me people... sorry... i was born like this :)

well that's all i can say...

oh and another thing...

i think some gradings were quite unreasonable... not for me... but there are some who received unreasonable grades...

lizette is a girl who expects herself to do more than what she can... what an idiotic will...

2009-03-04T06:51:00.002+08:00

FOUR DAYS. was working for four days straight 8 hours in the first fay and 6 hours on the next three days. i felt like i was standing for almost four days already. i'll post again later. now it 7am i have to go back to sleep. i'll be working 5 days in a row starting friday. hopefully there will be people in the airport! so i won't die of boredom. lol. Zzzzz....

2009-03-02T11:25:00.003+08:00

TWILIGHT. i really think through about what to entitle my post today. well because there are two topics that are preoccupying my mind now. one is as what i have chosen - twilight and the other one is - hotpants.

begin with the twilight first. since i think that the only book that i could read without getting bored is of course harry potter, i won't really read twilight. on the other hand, i think that the story might be interesting - so i'm listening to an audiobook. its really more exciting than reading the book. aside from the fact that i don't have to damage my eyes. it kills the time travel i take everyday from my place to changi! the story seems to be interesting but it is beyond predictable. i wish the author had been more creative in making the book more thrilling. its like giving the feeling like you're on an edge ready to fall and suddenly u saw you're just falling a foot away from where you are - more worse - you're falling in soft grass. i'm terrible in illutrating and explaining things lol but all i mean is that the story lacks in thrill. i'm just at the first book so i'm really looking forward that the following books will be better.

on the hotpants topic. i just want to give my opinion and suggestion. i think wearing hot pants really is cool in a way. but omg wear it properly! yesterday while i was in the train about 10pm i guess i saw this teenage girl wearing a cotton on think jacket, skimpy top and a 5 inches long short = hotpants. she has silver eyeliners and her hair is covering most of her face. she's tall and she has skinny legs making each pant's circumference really big for her size. i saw quite alot of people staring at her and commenting on how small her pants are. but that's not the worst part i think she has decided to make the world see everything. :) to all the girls be careful. don't be like her. at least sit or stand properly when u wear these kinds of shorts.

i'm done for the day. i have to prepare for work :)! i'm really hungry now hehe. ciao!

2009-02-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

LOVE STORY. its my backgroud music for more than a week i think in my blog. i love the song. gave me goosebumps when i hear it lol. its a sort of a lame thing but some songs still do give me goosebumps.

like:

start of something new - highschool musical
what i've been looking for - highschool musical (troy and gabriella's version)
you are the music in me - highschool musical 2 (troy and gabriella's version)
everyday - highschool musical 2
gotta go my own way - highschool musical 2 (gabriella's version)
don't tell me - avril lavigne
keep holding on - avril lavigne
when you're gone - avril lavigne
always be my baby - david cook's version
tear drops on my guitar - taylor swift
love story - taylor swift
i still believe - hayden panettiere
this is me(i gotta find you) - demi lovato (only when the jonas brother guy enters)
get back - demi lovato
whatever it takes - lifehouse
i'll go wherever you will go - the calling

just sharing hehe... i'm getting bored of playing my pet... lol

2009-02-25T19:23:00.003+08:00

ITS WORKING SEASON AGAIN. i just had my last paper today. finally 2.1 is over! going to start work soon! haha! work = money = more food! i want a go go - cheesedog on prata:)

anyways not really in a mood to post something today... just wanna show this lovely picture of rainbows. took it from our window. there's two of them the other one's quite light though but i think its fantastic. first time i saw 2 rainbows together lol!

2009-02-20T20:28:00.003+08:00

ENGLISH LANGUAGE VS PROGRAMMING LANGUAGE. sad to say its different. oh well i grew up knowing 'is' a verb - an auxiliary verb or a 'be' verb in short. but now its not considered a verb anymore by many. oh well.

Pronunciation verb and auxiliary verb, present singular 1st person am, 2nd are or (Archaic) art, 3rd is, present plural are; past singular 1st person was, 2nd were or (Archaic) wast or wert, 3rd was, past plural were; present subjunctive be; past subjunctive singular 1st person were, 2nd were or (Archaic) wert, 3rd were; past subjunctive plural were; past participle been; present participle be⋅ing.
–verb (used without object)
1.
to exist or live: Shakespeare's “To be or not to be” is the ultimate question.
2.
to take place; happen; occur: The wedding was last week.
3.
to occupy a place or position: The book is on the table.
4.
to continue or remain as before: Let things be.
5.
to belong; attend; befall: May good fortune be with you.
6.
(used as a copula to connect the subject with its predicate adjective, or predicate nominative, in order to describe, identify, or amplify the subject): Martha is tall. John is president. This is she.
7.
(used as a copula to introduce or form interrogative or imperative sentences): Is that right? Be quiet! Don't be facetious. –auxiliary verb
8.
(used with the present participle of another verb to form the progressive tense): I am waiting.
9.
(used with the present participle or infinitive of the principal verb to indicate future action): She is visiting there next week. He is to see me today.
10.
(used with the past participle of another verb to form the passive voice): The date was fixed. It must be done.
11.
(used in archaic or literary constructions with some intransitive verbs to form the perfect tense): He is come. Agamemnon to the wars is gone.

-from dictionary.com

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i cannot argue. oh well. i'm wrong - or am i?

the exam was totally different from what i've expected. full of vague questions - totally! the thoeries - where i hoped i'll probably do better - was not even present. what else can i say. its over. i've done what i have to do and its a goodbye to this ______ subject. (its neither a bad nor a good description, i just can't think of any adjective to define this subject - i think there isn't any actually lol. i find it quite 'useless' though.) i'm contented to what i have done in the exam. hope for the best:) cheers!

2009-02-14T22:56:00.004+08:00

V-DAY. its valentines day! happy hearts day! this year's hearts day for me is finally a totally different one! no more final presentation like last year:) had to spend the day with of course, with someone special! i had fun, finally a valentines day had been a valentines day to me:)

...this day has truly been a very special day to me...

found this thing in dinna's blog... looks intersting... so tried the quiz... lol...

2009-01-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

FACEBOOK VS FRIENDSTER. i used to like friendster alot but facebook is getting much much better than friendster. not just because facebook has PET SOCIETY(which i'm totally inlove with!) but also how much friendster has becoming laggy. opening photos is a torture. you have to wait for like a minute to open one! hais.

i think that's for my post today after so long.. lol.. not in the mood to post.. -.- too much to think about.. hais.. just really pissed with friendster.. they have to do some maintenance! its a nice communication network for people but its becoming lousy! i hope the organizers of this network pay attention to this matter lol!

its not my internet connection, i'm experiencing it everywhere i go and its not just me:)

2008-12-21T18:59:00.002+08:00

NEW. i finally have a new phone! so happy about it of course. i was frantic for weeks because of my old phone which suddenly had an lcd problem last few weeks. i had no proper phone to use, my dad doesn't allow me to buy a new one - it was horrible. but... i still bought a new phone! - of course - he doesnt know. i bought it online so i had it delivered to keith's house!:) the plan was perfect. but.. i think i'm busted. i think he saw my phone this morning coz he went to my room and opened my cabinet where the phone is hidden (i think he haven't heard the word privacy!! my god!!). he didn't sayt anything - yet. maybe i'll get scolding sooner or later but who cares i have a new phone i just have to keep quiet for about few minutes while the scolding is happening - not so much of a damage (used to it) - i still have my phone. :) cheers.

2008-12-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

ACCUSATION. my mother was just accusing me stealing $40.00 from her account because she asked me to withdraw for her and i didn't print the freaking receipt because i don't want to waste the freaking paper used for that. for heaven's sake why in the world would i do such thing! my god. can u imagine how much trust i gain from my parents?! it ridiculously less that 10% (this small percentage is making her decide to ask me withdraw her money because she gots loads to do at home and she's LAZY to go downstairs) maybe of the trust you can give to a person. and for heaven's sake their my parents. well to shut her up, i told her i would show her all the transactions made in her account for the past few months and then she's free to give me an evidence of what she's accusing me for, if she could find one. if we were in court, i can feel my triumph in about a second. innocent:)

that totally ruined my day. obviously. my day was quite fine since morning, dad knocked at the door at 8:30 am, i opened it, i said i'm going out to do project, i had the YES word in a second! that's totally like about 110% improvement on this sort of matter - its supposed to take about more or less 24 hours to get an answer. then during the project (assignment as you call it in tp - but it is a project right??) making, i think we were doing quite well. we manage to do what we are supposed to do. now just a little bit of touching up to do:) with this one, only this one. the others, haven't started:( i better get going, i need some dinner.

2008-12-13T10:59:00.002+08:00

FOR NOW. rest i must say, maybe for 2 to 3 days. term test had just finished and now its the two week term break which seems to be so packed with projects as the the last 3 days of this year and the first day of next year will be alloted for the submission of these projects. its gonna be a busy holiday. one thing im happy abou this holidays. i finally completed my harry potter books! :) cheers for me. at last i had the money to buy them.

2008-11-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

ECP ONCE AGAIN. my exclassmates o levels just finished so everyone was so in the mood to go to - non other than - east coast park. i don't know how to explain but that's just the first in the list of destinations of everyone. and once again, it rained - and we rented a bike. but, though it rained and we choose not to get wet and chill at coffee bean, i enjoyed that little time of riding. it was fun of course - i can get used to riding every week! lol! (last week, went to pulau ubin and rode the bike one whole day! it was exhausting but -of course - fun!) i want to upload photos of this two weekend trips but, due to my laziness i wouldn't.

anyways, just finished my csad phase 1 report yesterday, so i had time to go to ecp today. i actually already planned not to go but, my sister wants to - so just go there and forget all the projects once in a while. lol.

there are more projects on the way and when i said more, its literary more!!! as from my calendar, every week, there will be a submission! and of course, term test soon! omg... i have to do well this time, i've always done bad for my term test. i don't know why, lol.

nothing much to blog about. bye!

2008-11-08T13:45:00.002+08:00

CONFERENCE. yesterday, i was in a conference at suntec city. it was some sort of microsoft research asia's conference. well the talk sounds exciting so we decided to go and just submit an loa for our sociology tutorial. well the conference was ok, some interesting stuffs were shown but... its too long for me to bear with it. there's no break and its basically just known people talking. what can you expect from a conference?! - basically - boredom?! - yes definitely. and it's not only for me, even my teachers thought so. lol!

2008-11-02T18:21:00.002+08:00

JUNIOR. okay, here's the update after such a long time. what's new with me, well i'm currently at my second year of studying at temasek polytechnic and i can say that sooner or later i will have no time to update my blog and be in so much of a panic mode due to some inevitable school pressure. after a long time, i just had time to chill now - that's why i'm blogging lol. went for work during half of the holidays then now, trying to focus on school works again - though i want to work on weekends. i'll settle that sooner or later, but today my main aim is to relax.

school. school stuffs are still the same - lousy timetable, boring lectures, and confusing, longwinded tutorials and practicals. my 1.2 sem went well, manage to hit top 3. lol. at least i managed to, in a world of computers, its such an achievement - for me. haha. for this sem, of course i'm still hoping i get good grades, but base on what i can see, subjects had become more stressful and demanding.

cmsk - i was a bit confident at the start of last term, i did well, but this time, its so hard, my mind can't think any way to start the whole process. it requires innovation, which i think, i am poor at. hais. i just wish it was report writing again.

csad, dsag - new programming language. i hate the idea of converting from java to c#. its a total torture. its like asking people to change his or her point of view in such an obliged manner. its confusing, its difficult and it sucks.

ooad - damn i thought it was programming. as far as i can describe the whole idea of this subject, its art class and literature. need to draw lots and lots of stick people then do some sequencing of events.

dbsy - sort of okay, new thing, but the timing is horribly scheduled. lab and tutorial before lecture, no point attending the lecture. and take note of this - 2 hours of lecture when you already know what is being discussed. i seriuosly go out in the middle of the class to do some anti-boredom mind psychology so i can remain sane.

this is getting boring. i think i'll just go and update some other time. cheers!:)

by the way, o levels are on the go. goodluck to everyone, i was supposed to be taking the same papers and experiencing the same stress now! i'll pray for all of you guys! goodluck!